Saturday, April 30, 2005
have you ever had the feeling after a run that u just accomplished something majorly worth celebrating? i dunno, it just sorta exhilarates u all over. its not like gym when you're pushed by peer pressure and teachers and grades and everything that u didn't need. whereas if u chose to train by urself with ur own iniative, you feel this sense of achievement. anyways, even though i was killed on sunday, it felt good while it lasted, which is quite awhile actually.
Saturdayhere's my schedule
7:00AM - woke up
7:30AM - jogged around the block with joy
9:00AM - came back after running and chilling at the swings for half an hour with joy
11:00AM - played badminton in xtreme heat and sun, saw random girls tanning in their bras and wat not. stupid girls
11:30AM - food calls
12:30PM - Played vball
2:00PM - vball died so we decided to walk around the block until about 5ish
7:00PM - badminton with lily, roy and joy (hey they rhyme!!! :D)
9:30PM - dead on ma feet
wonder wth made me do what i did. but hey, i felt good :D
Throwing you kisses @ 10:08 PM
It's been another one of those couple weeks when happiness, joy, sorrow and hecticness completely take over me and leave me incapable of summoning up the courage and determination to sit myself in front of this hulk of metal for extensive hours to write down about the boring and ordinary happenings in my life. so now, i shall take a deep breathe, and slowly narrate to you my uneventful happenings.
Friday apr 8 and Monday apr 11well, it was one of those days when i have nothing better to do so i decided to loiter the school until everyone leaves, or rather until everyone but kaitai leaves so i can say my proper goodbyes which i can't do in public. but let's not let that put the wrong ideas in your head. proper goodbyes as in hug and maybe a peck. nothing more.
so i loitered about saying goodbye to everyone who had to leave for either home/ practices or stage band. and as it turns out it was just me, kaitai and cam left. and cam and kaitai, being the perverted and horny lil boys that they are (not that there's anything wrong with that, love them for that) started a conversation, which would of course put me in an awkward position. i am, of course, a wonderful conservative naive and innocent girl(kaitai would beg to differ) *angelic look on face*, and i politely stayed in that particular conversation and wondered to myself if that is the kind of hting guys talk about.
here's an example of the subjects that came up:
-Do you know what would suck? if you're getting horny when you're playing baseball or hockey with jocks on.
-Well, Dorcy, you know never to walk past one of kaitai's baseball games...
-uh... yes.
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Dorcy: Is this what you guys talk about alone?
Cam: No, just when you're around to make you feel uncomfortable. *smirk smirk*
I was incredibly tempted to pull away and just walk home because so many times, their choice of subject was hilariously perverted. but i chose to stay cause kaitai called after me. heh heh heh grin grin grin. so i did and peter joined us. unfortunately, peter proved to be a very horny lil sevie, definitely following up in the footsteps of kaitai. this is a sad sad world we are coming to. :P
eventually, cam broke his headphones and starting saying "fuck fuck, i broke my headphones" every other second. stupid yet "ingenious" *coughcough* kaitai suggested hotglueing them together but of course, using the dorcy logic instead of the kaitai logic, that would not work, so the best thing to do was bid farewell to our old chum cam and wish him best of luck facing the music with his mommie.
then, after i could no longer stand staying in the same spot for over an hour, i decided to go home because jazz would be coming out by then, and i had no wishes to face the ppl in either jazz or stage. mostly because... that would draw an unpleasant period to my own time with monsieur kaitai.
kaitai, being the good sport that he is, volunteered to walk me home. only as it turns out, i dragged him half the way home. he was on rollerblades of course. but that made lil difference when it was uphill. my poor backpack/ shoulders. i am, i shall keep telling myself this which is what kaitai told me all the way back, a big strong ox who is able to drag someone who's bagillion inches and bagillion pounds heavier than i am uphill all da way home. uh huh.
of course, no one, upon reading this, should get the idea that i brought him home with me because that is most definitely not the case. he had wanted to go to dominion, but i had declined. so he walked me to the lil park underneath my building where i proposed swinging on the swings, and he humoured me. telling me that he sucked at swinging, he challenged me to see who could swing higher. i wasn't stupid enough to actually believe what he said, but a challenge is a challenge nonetheless. stupid boy swung so high that he managed to fly off his swing a couple times. :P
sometime, we stopped and he sat on the swings and i stood beside his swing just talking. eventually, somehow, some way or another, he pulled me in closer and i ended up sitting on his lap sideways with my arms round his neck. teeheeeheeeeee. i cant help but smile at this. i noe its not much, but its just the little things that you do that makes you smile and makes ur stomach clench. it's not the major making outness but the tiny things that leave footprints in your heart. so i sat there, my head on his shoulder, gently swaying. there were moments of silence when i'd smile as he "swung" with me on his lap, not moments of awkward silence, not moments of bored silence, but moments of silence when i'd sink into my pool of bliss during the brief seconds when my mind would be cleared of my senseless babbles to actually allow actual thinking...
it felt weird being quiet, and it wasn't long before the chitter chatter would all start again. i swore before that i wouldn't hide anything from this blog, but i dont feel like elaborating on the fact that there were certain kissing going on at the swings. i admit with all honesty it was really cute and sweet, given the time and place and atmostphere, but that shall be that.
on monday, something similar to this happened, take cam outta the picture.
while we were at the swings, i was talking to kaitai, who was sitting on one of the swings btw. i stood in front of him, arms half wrapped round his neck. occasionally, he would pull me in and i would lean to give him a couple kisses. i caught myself thinking after one of those kisses how abnormally quiet everything is when we're kissing. maybe it's only cause we're both really loud ppl when we want to be during tickle fights and arguements, that when held in comparison, those moments felt eerily quiet. not complaining though.
on several occasion, kaitai leaned back on the swing and removed his arms from my waist to hang onto the the swing chains. me, still with my arms round his neck, was dragged frontwards (his backwards). it felt scary. the first time, i didn't know what was coming, and it felt like i was about to land face flat into the sand. not much of a big deal but it came a sudden movement. so there was the element of surprise in there. then the next few times that kaitai pulled this stunt, i swear i choked him because i was literally hanging on for dear life. there was nothing else for me to cling onto besides kaitai himself. i remember squeezing my eyes shut in fear (kinda stupid now taht i think bout it) and hugging him tight. it was when he assured me that he had "complete control over the situation and wont let me fall" that i opened my eyes and realized that in him leaning back and taking me with him, we are now parallet to the ground. or rather, in other words, horizontal. and paint yourself the picture in your head, i am, as logic should prove to tell you, on top on kaitai, choking him. now, i could said that in a much more dirtier way. such as... "we got horizontal and i was on top of him, making him out of breathe". but i did not, so please do not coat what i said (words not in quotation marks) with any layer of pervertedness.
in the meantime, i wont deny the fact that it felt good, me gainst him. my mind's starting to wander as i type this, so i'll finish this quick. i can swear i saw weird looks from ppl walking by but thats no matter, i felt good :D:D i dont mean it in any lustful way (or maybe a lil). i have no intentions of making crossing bases as my main objective but its just the fact that i had him soo close to me felt really good. i mean, how close do you get to be with someone on an average day?
anyone who has read
sisterhood of the travelling pants the second book, will know about lena and kostos and their lil summer romance. i starve for those romances. although i would hate to suffer through the heartbreaks lena has put herself through, i die for the lil patch of grass where lena and kostos made out under the stars on summer nights. its highly unrealistic, what sorta ppl go knock on each others window to go into their backyards and start making out? but hey, its in a book, and as much as i hate these unrealistic perfections, i cant help but yearn for them. now, maybe not so much the making out part, (but hey, i wouldn't mind it either :P), but i just want to have that oppurtuniy to lie there under the stars beside the one u love, having him right next to me. that's all i ask. sometimes, hugs beat kisses, call me crazy. it's not something i explain. because my brain sorta goes numb when im kissing and what not. its just that sometimes i wish i can just stay in his arms...
then there was the maybelline lipgloss which he squeezed and i ooed and ahhed over the pertayness of the shimmery substance under sunlight. i told him not to tickle me and make me land upon the gooey stuff. he took as a challenged and picked me up in one of those fairytale picking up ness like one arm under knees and one arm behind back. i had my arms round his neck, ahhh... pure bliss. so cute. it was fun... the brief moments when he flung me into the air and caught me when i was inches from the ground. stupid stupid boy. :P
at one point, kaitai tried climbing a tree but failed because the thing was too tall. and somehow, we ended up kissing and who should walk by at exactly that point in time but shayan...
Throwing you kisses @ 8:27 PM
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Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
