Where I Kiss My Childhood Goodbye

Saturday, April 16, 2005

okley, b4 i move on to blog anything. heres what actually happened.

mel only invited bree and keith, kristen was invited by sarah cuz she heard bout it too and susie invited alan and asked him b4 she asked keith there we go. all betta :D *grin grin grin*

Throwing you kisses @ 1:08 PM

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

gone a week without blogging. and now that im not running, i'll stop and write down as much as i can remember over the term of this week.

well, good news is everything's good again. once again, it proves just about how much talking between to ppl can mean. i didnt actually realize that point, until bree told me one day, well actualy the thursday when kaitai and i had our disputes about teasing each other, that i needa talk with him. i already know that i did, but she added, "you have to go talk with him, because me and liam didn't talk and this is what happened". and that just lit a match through the pitch blackness. its so very insignificant when its just empty talk bout the written philosophies. but it actually sinks in when you witness it happening around you. a picture tells a thousand words. so what does a "movie" that takes place over the course of one month or year tell you? it beats a thousand philosophies and a thousand comforts. it only truly strikes your heart when you actually see it happen, or else, it will just be empty talk or hollow words on the computer screen or paper. i am, however by no means criticing the citations of these quotes and philosophies. they are of course, summed up by ppl who have aged far before us and no doubt experienced similar traumas, thus contain all sorts of assumed wisdom which we would benefit by listening to those meaningless words.

anyways, off that tangent. sometime on friday or saturday, when we've slightly patched up, kaitai decided to go to the movies again. earlier on in the week, when we had our awkwardness around one another, i didn't have the courage to ask him about the movies because deep down, i know what the answer would be. its like a rejection basically. and besides, i never had the opportunity to ask him. and even if i did, i wouldn't because i would snatch up that opportunity to find out where we're standing then. but back to the movie thing. somehow, him agreeing to go to the movies sort of make me feel that everything was back to the way they were before again. but stupid dorcy had to keep everyone hanging there. unlike what kaitai made it seem, my parents are pretty easy with the whole going-out-with-friends idea, as long as they dont have to do anything. i admit im no where as good as convincing my parents as some, but hey. so i ended up going anyways.

i got a ride from rach to da theatre, we were couple minutes late, but thats okay because the trailers took about 10 minutes or so. i was surprised to see a dozen people there. what were originally planned as a date of sar and cam with me and mel as chaperons turned out to be a quin date/ fling/ whatever u ppl wanna call it. until now, which is a week after the whole ring 2 incident, i never did figure out how 4 ppl turned to 12. so maybe i'll take this time to perform this astonishingly brain throbbing mathematical feat.

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hmmm... lemme c. in da beginning, it was sar, cam, me and mel as chaperons. but of course, sar being the totally considerate sar realized that i would want to bring kaitai. and that would leave mel alone. so she took suz. then of course. i procrastinated telling kaitai about it until i couldn't. so kaitai refused to come, and honestly i dont blame him. now of course, everyone was going wth is wrong with kaitai? and i just clamped my mouth shut not saying anything because, somehow, i dont feel the need for everyone to know about every lil detail in me and kaitai's relationship. or rather, i dont know, i just decided to keep what happened to myself.

alrite, leaving my emotional bits behind. we now move on to the locker scene where i heard from different sources (they tell different things but it basically pieced up to this: ) one fateful dark and stormy day at the dreaded lockers of doom... melissa raised her high pitched nightingale voice which pierced through the silence of the afterschool time frame of 3.10pm.- 3.20pm. saying how she needs a date for the saturday night movies. now of course, this is where i introduce you all to the Brilliant mishai buzzi bee and Stunning mz SQUAre. upon hearing all the commontion in the hallway, (mel's voice and words has quite the effect of attracting attention to herself) they gathered round mz chocolete velvet (also known as mel, millie, mille, melis, or simply melissa) and demanded to known why there were not invited to this gathering of sorts. so of course, i welcome aboard bree and kristen on our movie train.

now then, had mel been "spazzing" (as sources had it) , i think lil ol' me can assume that she wanted a date of the opposite gender, as she already had suz before. speaking of which, how on earth did she "forget" bout her les date anyways? but that is really not the point. anyways, so somehow, melissa invited keith, and in this process she invited bree and kristen. suz, on da hand was found at the theatres sitting along the sides of monsieur allan. i dont know how that happened. but i think allan and keith were invited at the same point in time... so mel and suz prob invited him too. wahtever. so now, we're at... 10 ppl. of whom... 5 were invited by mel.

now, because mel made out so many invitations, her friday afternoon took quite a turn as she did not have answers from everyone that she invited yet. me, kaitai, bree, kristen, and suz too probably would not be able to make it at that point. and mel went crazy with her planner mode. and me and sar tried our very hardest on msn to calm her down. there was lil point to worry about things because everyone who can make it will contact u eventually, and ppl knew better than to inform ppl of such important details at the last moment. as it turns out, bree could make it, but upon discovering that everyone had a "date" (i dont even know if half the guys there were informed of this word) decided with mel (it was one of them, dont know which, my sources do not extend that far) that marko should come. and then we have ... 11 ppl. and now. i felt incredibly bad for rach and dimitri, because it was not fair for them not to come when ppl who had lil close to no relationship to the circle whatsoever was coming too. i did not dare voice this out to the "committee" earlier because there were already 11 ppl, which is already putting things off balance but still.

sometime on saturday, i made up my mind and invited rach, which is just as well, because i couldn't leave kristen without anyone. i doubt if kristen would mind had she not have a date anyways, kristen tough. so if kristen, if u happen to come across this, somewya or another, i bow to ur tuffness and i hope you're feelin' better about the whole washboardeyes thing. the committee was a bit reluctant about letting rach come because the whole situation was very wavering at that point. but wahts done has already been done. dorcy's big mouth has already done the harm.

so there you have it - 12 ppl.

article last reviewed: apr 10th 2005

WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT WAIT!!!

i forgot to talk buot the actual movie... heh heh silly me.

so yes, me and rach got there and we sat with kristen and kaitai at the bottom of the three rows that we took up. then i realized that i dont want to be at the bottom rows, because it feels like im being watched constantly by ppl above me. so kaitai dragged me up to the last row and made marko and ppl shove over, so we could move in. its times like this when i really appreciate kaitai being there for me. i would never have gotten up to move and make ppl shove over. kaitai either knew this or he just wanted to make me happie sitting at the top. either ways, it was nice. *dreams*

so we settled down, and i made a fit about him and marko teasing me about my laugh and stuff. perhaps it had been the excessive amounts food i had ate. i dont fit quite as comfortably into his arms anymore. so he told me i was fat and large and i shoved him away and stayed there. lolz. then he took me back and i leaned on him, careful not to squish his arm.

did anyone realize how annoying the armrests at the cineplex are?????!!! im so pissed at them. the last time i went to da cineplex with kaitai, i was equally pissed, but not nearly because we didn't really get as close anyways. but now... grrr!!! i cant even lean on him... sigh. i swear. i will make a petition bout those solid armrests!! so couple minutes later, i found kaitai laughing at me punching the armrests. "ya, that'll make it go up." i heard him say. i didn't care. i really disliked those armrests. gahh... stupid ppl. dont they realize that the top place to go for a date is the theatres???? so whats the armrests doing htere? dont they realize that those pesky things are ruining it for everyone? they prevent all physical contact between the movie-go-seeing couple. jeez. i understand if they are trying to prevent x rated things from happening by putting an armrest there but c'mon. its a MOVIE THEATER!! wats the worst that can happen? i doubt even thrid base. besides, if it were to happen, would anyone actually do anything in front of the general public? they'd be shielded in some way or another, with a coat or blah watever. i mean look at it this way.

scenario:

girl and boy sit down. the armrests happiely pop up.

boy happily wraps his arms round girl's thin waist.

girl snuggles closer to boy until her tiny frame is leaning against the boy's torso, feeling his chest rise and drop with each inhale and exhale.

girl leans her head on boys shoulder in bliss.

boy hears a tiny sigh from girl, he wraps both his hand around girl's waist and hugs her close, squeezing her a lil.

girl looks up and meets boy's eyes. his features darkened by the dim lighting in the theatre, giving them a new look, a new mysterious coating even though his eyes, his nose, his lips are oh so close. so so close. she can almost feel his lashes flutter against her face.

girl tilts her head and gave up the fight within herself and kissed boy ever so softly on his cheek. a tingle on her lips where she had just touched him.

boy looks down at girl and tilts his face to girl's.

his hands found girl's face and gently tilts her head framed with her cute and pertay hair so their lips found one anothers. slowly, and gently, they exchanged kisses.

as their lips brushed against each others, girl found her arms wrap themselves around boy and slowly, she drew him closer until they were only separated by the clothes they were wearing.

locked in each others tight embrace, boy and girl basks in each others presence which they hold ever so close to themselves in their arms and exchanged passionate kisses.

now someone please tell me. would any of those cute and intimate moments happen had there been an pesky armrest there??? i dont think so. they would be NOWHERE near each other. the closest they can get is girl leaning on boy, and a squished arm around the girl's waist. and those kisses would be nowhere as fun because they're practically separated. stupid armrests. now then, u just wait, once i get the petition up, all da couples in the world would be thanking me. mawhahahahahahahahahahahaha

well, back on topic. so then we watched the movie and 10 minutes into it kaitai poked me and i looked over to bree and marko. bree had her head on marko's chest and it was about one of the cutest thing i ever witnessed with my own two eyes. i looked up and met kaitai's eyes and he gave me this disappointed look and shook his head at marko. i grinned cheekily and rested my own head on his shoulder. and so goes the movie. there was points when i was freaked by the sudden jerks of movements so i clutched kaitai's arm real tight, and i assumed it painful. o well, poor kaitai, having to put up with me *cheeky grin (or squirelly grin in kaitai's case*

kaitai seems to find pleasure in seeing me squirm when he tickles me. yes, and me being totally ticklish was completely vulnerable to the tickle attacks. lolz. also, he had not previous knowledge that my bongo tube top was being kept on my torso by a mere elastic thing on the top, so when i told him that my shirt does reach my pants, he took it the wrong way, and tried to pull it down. luckily smart lil dorcy *grins proudly* had the sense to cling onto her shirt top to prevent it from going down. lolz. that make kaitai embarrased... hmm... wait, no not really. lolz. it was also at that movie when i realized i was very flabby and such, esp when im wearing size 0 jeans and scrunched up into a weird lil position... it is virtually impossible to not have flubber when you're doing what i was oding. but unfortunately that doesn't change the fact that i need to work out more. too bad. stupid kaitai made me feel very fat and flabby, so i ignored him for a whooping whole 5 minutes, sulking. not the smartest thing to do might i add, but still. i wasn't playing. i shouldn't have sulked, cause that just tneds to make everyone poopie. but ya, i am flabby, and it took me awhile to get over taht.

hmmm... i think i will digress a bit and tell you a lil about the movie even though i really have no wish to do that. but o well.

some random ghost person possesses a kid and in order to get rid/ trap the ghost, u gotta drown the kid, because the ghost is scared of the water. so in the end, ghostie dies, and everyones happie.

randomly there were deers attackin a random car. and a nurse ish person killing herself with a gimongo needle. woot. the sad thing is that for the entire movie, i thought "the ring" was about a random ring, as in a wedding ring ish ring. so i kept a lookout for someone with a ring... "someone's gotta be wearing a ring int his movie" i thought. o well. another dorcy moment. lolz.

o rite rite. after the movie ended, mel, bree, and i made plans to do drama 2morrow. and i watched with a careful eye as bree and mel did up their coats and even shirts after the lights came on. ooo. i c something there... teeheee. well... ya, okley, so i was zipping up my sweatshirt too, but that was only because there were parents there so i had to look appropriate and i doubt a belly top was considered among da azn rents as appropriate.

as i was talking with kristen and marko, i saw kaitai outside the waiting area doing wild and crazy hand gestures that i have no hope of comprehending. so i kept talking, then i saw him run away. it was then that i realized taht he was probably going to leave. so i made kristen and marko come outside with me where i saw a lil red figure skip across the parking lot. and disappearing. so as kristen and marko talked, i followed kaitai with my eyes. i knew there wasn't anything i can do or willing to risk to bid him goodbye in front of his parents. i dont know if his parents know bout us yet and even so, i doubt if they would be very happie to see their 14 year old song whom they still consider a crazy lil kid who's always falling being kissed by another girl, so i just stood there and sent him off with my eyes. and stared into the distance.

minutes after i lost him admist the drifting snow, i looked up from my trance (which i was regreting not coming out in time to hug/ kiss him goodbye) to see a red blob frolicking (okay, not frolick, more like bouncing) across the parking lot to us. shh, dont tell anyone, but i was glad he came back. he stayed to talk a lil bit. but clearly avoidly any physical contact with any of us, then he had to go and he ran away. i realized by then, that his parents could probably see all of us, so i resisted the urge to hug n kiss him. i called goodbye after him and watched him run across the lot after tapping me ever so slightly on my arm...

then we walked into the arcade, and saw mel with keith. something was definitely up, but i couldn't ask because it was dead pos-y. so i sat through the ride home, thinking about what i did, and regreting me sulking and such and wishing i'd did more sensible things. but wats been dones been done. so, thus ends my saturday, april the second.

Throwing you kisses @ 12:53 PM

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Im simple	Im deep
Im dumb	Im smart
Im conceited	Im self-aware
Im crazy	Im logical
Im loud	Im quiet
Im unfeeling	Im caring
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