Saturday, December 11, 2004

jeez, my rents r soo selfish. they want me to start spreading me mom's namecards in school. ok, me mom just opened a new clinic, and yes i agree she needs publicity, but c'mon am i expected to start doing the advertising thing in school?? how low is that? i might be selfish and all in my not wanting to help out with the family thing, but can u imagine going around the school and dishng out name cards to whoever i meet?? it's sooo cheap, jeez. i have my life and i dont think handing out business cards is the way i wanna live my life, trying to befriend everyone. and they wont quit bugging me until i agree, i know that 4 a fact.

i offered to spread the word by just telling my friends but they insist i hand out the business cards and insist me friends give those cards to their rents. god. wth. am i like some sorta salesperson?? i swear, don't they ever think bout how i feel?!?! and yes, i understand that the least i can do to help out is to make me mom's new clinic known, but dont they know that by doing so, they are completely ruining my life?!?! how am i suppossed to be happy then?!?! they think its no big deal but truth be told, it IS!! handing business cards among classmates isn't the same as handing out cards among collegues. collegues are just business partners but classmates are the ones you have to be with for years and years and hte last thing u wanna be is be sooo isolated from them that u only talk bout formal matters. and u noe what, i dont care how this comes out sounding, handng out business cards in school is sooo cheesy!!! jeez, i have MY life, y are they always trying to mold my life according to THEIR wishes?!?! frig, y dont they just get their own robot then. ugh. selfish... sure i am, but what r thye?!?! tryng to me to live my life their way is completely UN-selfish?!?!? %#$%%^&%, not swearing...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, i wanna kill someone rite now........... AS=AOIPAS CHFIQWOPE YRQW4NL

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Friday, December 10, 2004

nothing much worth noting 2day except that well...

c mel and dvd... well, they were on good terms the day b4 but 2day, dvd talks of severing terms with mel, if y'all catch my drift. i dont know if the news has really sank in yet, but she seems so giddy, she's glad she can be "herself" again. i really dont think it has sank in yet. i mean mel was having major reaction about the dvd was behaving rite? she cared sooo much andnow, its like dvdz r nothing to her. wow, she sure has a way 2 control her emotions... i could never do that. i dont think so anyways. i mean, i've never had to deal with things so complicated. one kaitai thing is nerve-wrecking enough. meh, watever.

im in carolling for da violin!!!! joy to the world!! so happy. i actually played with my awful swollen finger today. lolz. speaking of which kaitai was not very nice, he didn't say anything bout it, not thta i had expected him to. but some friend he is. *roll eyes* i swear, my finger is so gross... ugh, i just have 2 get my regular finger back by monday!! at least by thurs, i want 2 play full-court basketball. ^^

o wait... ya, i read the class my story 2day... my story was sooo boring and so predictable. o joy. and i had to go 1 person after kaitai who had this amazing story!! wad i tell u? amazing story line with kick-ass drawings!!! frig him... i'll never be as perfect as he is... must keep on working harder... i'll do it... eventually. lolz. dawmn him for being so perfect, i love and hate him for it, so contradicting. o ya, i've realized that it was the GUYS that have the funny stories. like wes, sielski, liam and of course my kaitai. lolz ("my", pfsh, i wish)

great, dance is next friday. watch me have a nerve break down on thurs. so nervous. i told myslef i'd ask him, but u noe. i had planned to go like "wanna dance?" like any regular girl would do. but noooo, the girls have to come up with this weird theory according 2 suz's experience that i need to be forceful. geez, forceful. do u see "forceful" and "dorcy" go together?? i dont. i've to go like, "kaitai, DANCE!" wth was that?!?! that resembles so much like a brute. maybe i could go, "kaitai, let's dance. ^^" so much more me...

i know i cant back down now, if i am... theres gonna be majar massacre by bree, mel, kristen, lex and all dee otha girls i've told. and i bet u anything even liam is gonna bug me bout it if i dont. talk bout being in a tough spot. and now that mel's not tied down, you just know she's gonna compel me ask for a dance. its just a her thing and u know what. now that bree and lia both noe... they're prob gonna join in the lets-force-dorcy-to-force-kaitai-to-dance-with-her party. *roll eyes* lolz

lolz, and i was talking on the phone with mel and she was commenting on kt's baggy clothes and we were joking bout how we could make another set of clothes if we took out all the excess materials. i dunno, i think its just another kaitai factor, its him, just another part of him, a part of him that im obsessed with. so ya, i was jokin around too and i was saying how skinny how all absy guys in our school are. and i commented how i could fit another person in there and mel just started cracking up and saying how wrong that sounded. lolz. roflmfao. XD trust everyone to think like wes, not that its a bad thing, wait it is...

and we were talking bout how overwhelming when mitri and wes starts talking to you. those two have that height and build that seems like a wall... and when they come over together, they're like two walls, and i literally have to crane my neck sometimes to maintain eye contact lolz. wow, that was sooooooo relevant, wasn't it??

praying, wishing... for him

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Thursday, December 09, 2004

im screwed, i dont know what is wrong with me now... i just cant think straight!! ugh

so i'll start with the history presentation. it was sooo horrible. i mean, its bad enough that matt somehow decided to change all the lines in the morning which is so totally last minute. so i stumbled on a lotta of my lines and ugh, there was this part where i was supposed to look up the definition of "treaty" yet, the stupid dictionary just wasn't on my side 2day... ugh. i swear, i spent 10 seconds looking up that word, it was all sooo awkward ugh. i must have looked so bad up there. sigh* way to go dorcy. then you look at kaitai's group... ugh, and no im not biased cause its His group, their's was truly good. im not joking. it was awsm and mitri's group's presentations was funny too... what with the hippie, the drunk person, trump and of course the lobster... of course, mel was upset by the whole david thing... but i really cant blame her. kaitai was being really understanding and actually agreed with her. it was times like this when i wish i was as moody as mel is and have kaitai's sympathetic eyes on me. but its affection i want, not sympathy, sigh* the one thing i'll prob never get from him, my 4evercrush.

and during lunch, i had to teach this girl how to play the violin... i mean her part isn't that hard, i didn't have that much trouble learning my part... but watever floats her boat. so i spent my lunch time teaching her part. sihg* not the easiest job in the world. but meh, the thing that bothers me is whether i should send candy canes to him. im prob gonna send candy canes to all my friends, which isn't a small number. i mean, to me, it doesn't seem right that i should only send candy canes to my close friends, i mean, i should send it to everyone whos friendly with me. but once i sent it to certain ppl, there are some other ppl that i just HAVE to send it to. and the thing is... racheal and madi and ppl are doing it. i mean, i'm their friend and all, but not the ones who you could trust with all you secrets yet, and by having them filling out my candy cane orders, they'll know exactly who im sending the canes to... which when u come to think about it, isn't what i want at all.

*fast forward*during chamber choir, we were singing skye boat and mitri was the only baritone there, but somehow he mentioned kaitai and how good he was. of course, mitri's the main post in baritones and all but kaitai's just almost good as he is, if not rite up there with mitri (dont argue, im madly obsessed with him, so he's flawless, and no not mel and bree "flawless"). oh, it just makes my heart flutter to hear his name and think bout him. *dreamy sigh*

after choir, i saw the guys had a practice for volleyball, so i went over 2 watch. i want to see them actually playing, and of course watch "my" kaitai in actionl. ^^ *grin* (i wish) he is good!!!!. then again, he's the captain of the team, so of course he's good. i must admit, kaitai looks so much better in his gym clothes lolz. i think he forgot his uniform so he and wats-his-face was the only ones wearing their regular gym clothes which of course made him stand out even more, but hey im not complaining here.

so in the beginning, i was just standing by the door looking through the window panes, then i decided to go inside and sit on the stage, seeing lily was there. i mean, there's nothing wrong with watching a game of volleyball rite? so i sat on the stage and soon, all the girls (mostly girls from the basketball team) was on the stage, watching. then i heard anna saying that kaitai was really good. seems normal enough rite? i guess, but the jealousy started working and inside me, i was screaming, i was going berserk! HE IS MINE!!! MINE!!! YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO LIKE HIM!!!! i mean, i am overreacting, its just a casual comment rite? i guess, but im so threatened. im so crazy over him and i constantly live wiht the thought im not good enough for him. and yes, im possesive, even thought its not in the scary way, i just dont feel good bout that fact that other girls like him. i like competition and all, but not when im in so deep fighting a losing battle. im always praying for some miracle that the tables are gonna turn and i'll come out victorious... sigh*

dawmn kaitai and his perfectness, i just wish i could be more perfect for him. sigh* i just have 2 make it into carolling 2morrow, im going to prove myself to me and him and everyone else but i guess thats kinda hard when my 2 fingers on my left hand are swollen and can hardly bend... i DONT care!!! im going to make it!!!

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

ladeedoo, me in SUCH good mood 2day. i admit i wasn't in the best of mood during school days. then again, being me, u really cant expect me to jsut let what kaitai said to me be simply forgotten. i know i really shouldn't care, the last think i should do is let what the guys say bout me bother me. but this is diff, he's not just any guy, he's kaitai. i wont say anymore, the same drill shall go on and on and on and bore all those who are reading to their graves.

so he wasn't exactly being the nicest guy to me, but he's a guy, i guess its what guys do. lolz. i mean i cant think of anyone who actually doesn't mouth off to girls except for dimitri the nice gentleman and powell, well, powell's just too nice. meh, i'll have 2 get used to it, its not like im gonna confess any time soon.

after school, there was honour. sigh, i cant seem to make it back to my locker with my wednesday binder routine without having 2 ppl knocking it over. lolz. meh, i've learnt. its just a me thing now. lolz, so i tagged around the lockers for awhile, god knows why, i guess i just love the idea of having everyone there just talking and stuff, without kaitai and other ppl shouting commands like during football. (on a side note, kaitai looks so cute when he's serious and studying his music *grin*)

on msn l8r, bree was telling me bout liam lolz, that git, so stupid, claiming he was stupider... yes liam, we all know you are stupid lolz. and i think that bree got fed up with me with my constant ramblings, compliments, and complaints bout you know who. i've learnt to talk bout him less and less with mel and bree and lex now, i mean, nothings new, they cant feel the things that i feel, so there really isn't no point in me telling them every single detail. its something i have to deal with on my own, and everyone has their own life, i cant let my interest just push its way into theirs. ^^

moving on... here's the part that makes me giddy with delight, kaitai actually talked with me on msn 2day!! he came on three times 2day, or at least that i noticed. i didn't talk 2 him, well mostly cause:
a) i was scared
b) i was daunted by previous encounters of completely random convos
c) i have something else at hand (although there really isnt' nothing more important than him) *grin*
d) his status was busy or away.
so ya, i just stayed there, doing whatever i was doing then and when he came on for the the third time, he started a convo with me!!! well, he went "stupid dorcy". but thats ok... he says that like a million times to me each day so im gradually getting used to that. im not used 2 it yet, but ya, i will be in time. but the thing is, we actually had a somewhat logical convo this time. one that actually made sense. he seemed preoccupied though. but thats ok, i noe ppl often have 6/7 convos open at the same time. i noe cause i've done that soo many times. o well, so i blabbered on and he told me random facts about oyster being "erotic" and the derivation of "horny" and other random kaitai-ish facts (ok, i confess, he got them from bathroom reader). he seriously has a dirty mind, lolz, but c'mon, who doesn't at this age??? dont start acting innoncent. it was a nice civilized convo, but still, i'm satisfied, i'll go off smiling in my dreams. dreams filled with him... *swoons*

but at the end of it all, we went talking bout the sci fair for a bit and he and powell got into the top 20!!!! omg, i love him sooo much, he's so smart. *sigh* there are times when i wonder why i still love in spite of all the the insensitiveness but i guess i still do, watever. i dont wanna have an explanation, y make something so mysterious and romantic into a plain, flat boring textbook?? (there's a metaphor in there........ somewhere). love him so. but the thing is... he just signed off without saying goodbyes or watever, thats kinda saddening (if thats a word) but its k, prob computer problem or parents or watever, i'd rather believe that then he just found me annoying and left me hanging. i'm gonna be positive bout myself for once ^^.

"hugs and kisses even tho u'll never get them... not today" anyways"

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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

so tell me, is it just me or is kaitai just too unpredictable?? i mean, yesterday, there i was, fainting in the delusion that kaitai was being nice to me and today, im drowning in the tears i've shed within myself at his coldness towards me.

ok, so im overeacting again, big deal. been there, done that. so ya, since its nearly 11 now, i'll make this short and yes, i know bree's dad somehow has access to my site (ok, i know exactly how), but meh, its not like this is anything 2 be ashamed of, and the only reason y i didnt announce my feelings for kaitai is because well, people will talk and i should think mr. zhang is mature enough to not spread the words to anyone. well, anyways, stupid kaitai said my picture of a dunno-wat-it-is is "Ewwww". wahhhhhhhhhhh!!! :'( that was mean... then again, its kaitai, i mean i shouldn't take everything to heart. i really really shouldn't go all giggly over a couple nice words yet go ka-boom over his jeering remarks. so ya. but i wasn't altogether happy. something inside me felt queasy, not the best feeling in the world. i swear, there was a time when i was so confident that i should ask him for a dance but that confidence could be so easily deflated by a single prick.

oh and we went to suz's for hist. told her, that makes 7 girls that know so far. sigh* the weird thing is... how did pauline find out??? i swear, i dont believe anyone would tell her, im very trusting bout my friends and would be greatly hurt if they did a thing like that. i dont know, maybe she figured it out by the constant looks and mouthing liam was doing. i'll never know. i dont want to know if the answer was anything but that. *music* i dont wanna know... if you're fooling me, keep it on the low...*music fades away* so ya, made my point. lolz

the senior volleyball guys won!!!!!! the WON!!! im so happy!!! happy for them, for JGA and mostly for him. lolz. :D

r+j test 2morrow, wishing self luck... *FC*

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Monday, December 06, 2004

have no clue what to think or do... but then again, its not unusual for me to feel like this... there's always so many things that make up my day... hard 2 balance each event against the other... guess i'll never know.

so ya, i guess my day really starts at concert choir. anything before is even more trivia then what im about to record down. so i was sitting in my chair, doing my warm up exercises. i guess the weather was too much for us girls, us 5 had like a coughing chain reaction. it wasn't as funny as it used 2 be, but i guess still somewhat. but i mean, come on, after 1 month and 2 weeks of coughing u cant expect us to find that funny can u??? damn kaitai and his quick recovery. so we coughed through concert choir, sorta. and we did "steal" glances at the baritone.

but i mean come on... (this part is dedicated to mitri and kaitai for being so awfully retarded for such smart guys like themselves) its not our fault the baritones are sitting right across us, straight ahead. i mean, its only common sense that u look straight ahead, rite?? and mel has dvd, bree has lia, lex has todd, u cant blame me, can u?? and yes, even thought i had kaitai sitting rite across from us sopranos, i thought i had restrained my eyes from staring at him all the time. i mean, i have my excuses rite? the baritones are almost ALWAYS doing something incredibly stupid, and u really cant blame me if kaitai "tries" to be the stupidest of them all. i mean, if he wasn't, where did the "kaitai no" phrase come from?!?!?! but hey, where else would i look, even he wasn't here, i'd still look in that direction... i think. i had to look somewhere didn't i? meh, but kaitai was there... how could i not look at him?? tell me, how?? and why shouldn't i when everything in my body says that i luv him?? (woah, ok cheesy moment over) but i still admit that mitri has a point, i definitely dont need kaitai to be suspicious when i dont want him to.

after concert, we of course, had the ever-so-dreaded-by-me dance presentation. of course, mel wanted to do it 2day to get it done and over with. i was sitting with may and i was twisting my hands so nervously, i swear i was having like a breakdown inside of me. it wasn't the face i wanted to show around ppl esp kaitai, what he think of me now?? some weakling. then again, i always has been and will be a softie. its me, i dont enjoy being the push-over but i will have my say when im compelled to. well, anyways, mitri, kristen, bree, mike and lia's group was sooooooo awsm. they have a completely cool routine and lia with his stunts and mike with his cool electrified moves. bree and kristen with their complete coordination and of course, the man behind the scenes, dimitri, choreographer of all that lia's applaud winning moves. lolz.

so i went next and u shoulda seen me. i was sooo nervous, i messed up so bad..... not that ms A would know... but it wasn't the best i could dance... and definitely all the passion need for that latin tune to work just wasn't there and oh i dont know, everything seemed wrong with my performance. the guys were better than i thought they would be but by not giving it all, the moves seemed awlkward and so upsetting to me. im sounding the never-can-be-satisfied-gal inside me again. but i wanted everything i do to be perfect, for me and for him. i wanted him to see me as someone whos worthy of having a crush on him. i really dont ask for much. u guys should know by now, just standing like a metre away from him is like pure time in heaven. but i guess, my performance was nearly as good as what i'd like mine to be.

but when i went to sit down on my seat and grumbled with that voice inside of me, kaitai said the nicest thing he has ever said to me. "dont worry, it was good" i was at shock. and i sat there in a really stupid way, still twisting my shirt that i had covering my face in an attmept to hide myself from reality. i wasn't sure if the voice had come from kaitai. omg, could i have been hallucinating? is it true that kaitai actually had the heart to say something half decent to comfort me? yes, Yes, YeS, YES!!!! he did, HE DID!!!! i turned to look at him, but he wasn't looking at me, he was looking at the performing group. "it was good" he said to me, still emotionless. but inside of me, emotions were being stirred, everything was being tossed and turned like a salad (wow that was an awful description), i honestly didnt know what to feel, gratitude? doubt? confort? denial? happiness? or self-pity? in the end, i said the dumbest thing i could have ever said. i guess doubt, denial and self-pity conquered gratitude, comfort, and happiness after all. so i went,

"you're just saying that". how could i? when after all those monthes when i'd been wishing and praying for something nice being said to me coming from his lips, something like the two short sentences he had just uttered to me. it was just a mindless comment, a soft mutter, but to me, the words are still pounding in my ears. i want to hear them, forever and always. i want to be able to hold the words close to my chest and hear them whispering in my ears over and over again, knowing that he cared, he has a sweet side, a sweet side that he would show 2 me, a girl!! not one of his guy friends. mel was rite, he could be so sweet when he wants to be. yet waht can i do?? question him!! how could i?!?! but instead, he went "no, im honest, it was good" how i would have hugged and kissed him then. i loved him and now only more. how could i ever find my life someone as perfect as he is? i stared at him, his face still emotionless. as much as i wanted to hug him, i would really want to have a dagger in my knife and drive it deep into him. how can he be soo cold?? im dying!! and its ALL his fault. ALL HIS!!! he's the one that made me on the brink of hysteria for 2 whole monthes. he's the one that made me crazy with each word he says to me. he's the one that kills me with his words, his smile, his everything!!! It's ALL his fault. he cant do this to me. he CANT. it's not fair to me... its not, not fair at all...

im ok. really, stupid mood swings. meh. so ya then i was on msn and talking wiht mitri and mitri pointed out that kaitai knows chinese too. to think i was dumb enough to forget all aobut that fact. i mean its not like im scared for him to find out but i admit i do feel uneasy. i still dont know what i wanted, i still am asking myself the same questions i asked myself one month ago. but hey, i mean, being the idiot kaitai is, he probably wont be able to put two and two together anyways. i mean, of course he's one of the smartest guy in the grade but hey, if he doesn't wanna go there, there's no reason his brain would be albe to draw the line. i thought that i felt exactly as i had said, a watever attitude. then i saw his screen name. it changed!!! it CHANGED!!!

when???? WHEN?!?!? i mean, if he came online that would mean he saw my name and i noe he's already suspicious cause he asked mitri why mel and bree and I were staring at them (him) during concert. deep inside, i admit. i was afraid, very afraid. but i cant care now. what's done been done. its not like he's online most of the times anyways. i just have to take things one step at a time. i dont want to mind too much. i really dont. *sob*

im not as crazy as i sound... really, REALLY

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Sunday, December 05, 2004

i haven't written in so long... lets just say me and me rents didn't get along all that well these couple days. i might get into the details l8r when i have time... in the meantime... just puttin gup a few random thing the internet says bout us pisces-ians. lolz.


PISCES

The ruler of Pisces is Neptune. Its symbol represents a pair of sea horses or sea lions yoked together. They dwell in the innermost regions of the sea, which is symbolic of life after death or regeneration. The image also represents a duality, the struggle of the spiritual soul within the physical body.

Personal Traits
Pisceans are the most malleable of the twelve signs. They possess a gentle, patient nature, but one that is in want of molding. They can be impressed by and completely absorbed into their environment.

Pisces adapts to their surroundings, good or bad. They are generous, friendly, good natured people with a true sense of kindness and compassion. They are sensitive to everything around them including the feelings of others. They are popular folk because of their easygoing and likable manner.They have an uncanny sense of perceiving what a person is in need of, and delivering it. They are not initiators, but rather allow circumstances and events to motivate them, and then they respond.

Pisceans are not practical people. They are too ephemeral for normal day to day living in the world. They are sensitive and instinctual rather than intellectual or mechanical.When, however, they do find the right container, they are capable of some incredible deeds. They will become completely absorbed in a chosen path, to the exclusion of everything else.

Positive Traits
Pisceans do best in an environment where they can exercise their imaginations and intuitive nature. They are gifted artistically. They are versatile and tend to understand things by absorption rather than logic. They are loyal, home-loving, kind and generous. They are receptive to new ideas and circumstances.

They often make excellent artists in all fields because they have great imaginations.They possess wonderful creativity which is demonstrated in music, literature, drama and art. They appreciate luxury and pleasure, and are ripe for new sensations. When they travel, they prefer remote, exotic places.

Main positive traits: Understanding, instinctive, compassionate, artistic, sacrificing, charitable.

Negative Traits
Piscean characters are absent minded. They don't fare well in a controlled or fixed environment and generally rebel against convention. Pisceans wage only a personal battle.They can be so subtle, sensitive and emotional that they end up being a real drain on ones resources. In business they can be unreliable, idle, careless, impractical and ineffective. The negative side of Pisces is often fickle, a gossip, indiscreet, and gullible.

Pisces is easily misled because they want to believe. No matter how often they are led astray by vacant promises, they keep the faith and go on looking for their personal ideal. Their dreamy and impractical natures are a source of distress to those close to them.Being a mixture of an optimist and a pessimist , they find it difficult to make up their minds on any issue.

Main Negative traits: Pessimistic, impractical, unrealistic, fearful, emotionally restrained, melancholy.

Profession
In the career department, they are better working by themselves than for someone else. Their sympathy equips them for careers in charity, catering to the needy, as a nurse, looking after the sick, or as a veterinarian, caring for animals.

They have a love of water, and can be found in work that keeps them near the sea. Pisces creativity includes a natural ability to imitate or mirror another person as well as enter into their feelings. These attributes make them wonderful character actors, and many Pisceans find great fulfillment on stage or in films.

Pisces sense of others, is an ability that makes them effective in civil service and the legal arena. Many in law enforcement and the judicial system are Pisceans. Their intuitive and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in religion or to service as mediums and mystics. Still others are creative cooks and chefs. Because of their versatility and plasticity, they often follow several vocations during their lifetime.

Famous Pisceans
-> George Washington (February 22, 1732)
American Revolutionary Leader,
First President of the United States
-> Elizabeth Barrett Browning (March 3, 1806)
English Poet
-> Albert Einstein (March 14, 1879)
Renowned German Physicist

THE END

anyways... the thing is somewhat acurate... watever happened to my undeniably astounding brains?!?!? lolz... just joking lolz. and since when did i suddenly become a pessimist...?? *confused look* and enjoying 2 daydream isn't negative... not to me anyways... ^^

...:||Fingers Crossed for Friday the 17th||:...

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Dorcy
Call me Dorce, Dolce, Xi

Im simple	Im deep
Im dumb	Im smart
Im conceited	Im self-aware
Im crazy	Im logical
Im loud	Im quiet
Im unfeeling	Im caring
Im messy	Im lazy

Im everything I love
Im everything I hate.



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This is my space to rant, spaz, kill, rampage and mentally masturbate about whatever, whenever I want and whereever I want. No one said that bitching was supposed to be eloquent or pleasant, so if you're offended, I'm sorry, but you made the decision to read what I wrote. To everyone that might or will offended, if I'm still your friend, no matter what I wrote here, I must still love you enough to entertain you every day. I am not without faults, so excuse me if you will, like I excuse whatever I wrote in here about you. What's here stays here, whatever. Copyright © to ME, Dorcy Xi Chen, unless otherwise stated.