Friday, November 12, 2004

Did i mention that i keep getting looks from bree and mel whenever His name pops up, i was so embarrased, blushing so bad...

anyways, i dont know if i should give him a xmas present or not, cause if i do, that would mean that i'm basically spilling out what i feel 4 him, since i wouldn't normally give a guy a present if he aint all that close 2 me. well, i decided that i would anyways, if i can figure out what to give him that is...

well, i dont want something bought, it seems pretty insincere 2 me, so i've came up with the following list of gifts i could present Him.

a) Hand-drawn portrait of him
b) A website dedicated to Him
c) Personalized sweatband
d) Knitted scarf/ mittens
e) Cross-stiched picture
f) Jar of wishing stars
g) Hand-made roses
h) 99/ 999 paper cranes
i) A love-letter
j) An anonymous card with sweet sayings in them

I dont know, should I?

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this is somewhat upsetting. we're doing dance instead of drama. not that disappointing but the thing is, its group work. and since there's only so many girls in our class, ms A said that each group must have at least 1 girl... which basically means plainly that all the girls need 2 be broken up, with was kinda sad... if not completely annoying.

so i said 2 myself, maybe i could end up with Him, who now u ppl know as kt, but i knew that would b pretty impossible since u know, he's the cool and popular jock kinda guy and his friends r extremely jocky, and im not the type of girls that they hang out with. girls who r flirty and extremely pretty, not to mention extremely popular. I dont really mind, im happy being the average math brainiac. (ok, maybe not that average)

well, so ya, i didn't even bother looking there although i did steal a glance or two at Him. i went straight 2 bree and mel and kristen. bree and kristen stuck 2gether which i find odd since bree and mel r like best friends. so me and mel became a pair, i definitely dont want to b the only girl in a group. besides the jocks, there really weren't that many good guys left. 'mitri, mike, liam, eric... well, i noe liam will stick by his gf and 'mitri and mike will go with bree since i've already seen them grouping themselves when the teach was telling us these stuff on account of how close they're sitting and everything. That pretty much leaves eric... sad eh?

well, mel knew scott and james pretty k, so we went with them, they're pretty ok guys and all but u know, in comparison with the funky jock group and the intellectual bree group, ours really didn't seem much. o well, least i got mel. YAY!!!

so ya, me and mel weren't altogether all that happy with the whole dance thing but when we called each other, i found out thing piece of news that balanced out my day pretty much. according 2 mel, when i was leaning over 2 His table in an attempt to steal a glance at the work that He had refused 2 show us, He was staring at me 4 couple minutes b4 he regained his usual "mr-2-good-4-me" attitude. all the same, i was WHEEEEE!!! i could feel myself going beserk......... im so happy!

Oh...I love Him so...

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I haven't been bloggin for a couple days but i got pretty upset the last couple days, mainly cause i dunno, i had the strongest suspicion ever of kaitai liking sharon and when i found Kaitai looking at sharon during honour rehearsal. sigh. i pratically broke down that day... i was crying! i'm so pathetic.. such a huge softie. i'm breaking down for a guy!!! a guy who i'm not even sure if he likes me, isn't that the sadest thing u've EVER heard?

ya well, then i think it was yesterday, we actually started 2 talk a little, it was cool, more 4 school though, but i'm happy all the same, the joy of love/ crushing/ liking/ whatever u ppl wanna call it. (but its love 2 me). i was soooo happy. not only so, i actually played in the performance since i lost my voice and everything... mwahahaha and it seems my eyesights failing me cause i keep imaging kt looking at me... sigh, i wish it were so...

btw, He finally came online 4 the first time in 1.5 weeks! soooo glad. i tried to start a convo with him. but its just not working. if u noe me, i'm not one who usually start convos... but i usually end up with 4/5 ppl talking 2 me all the same... lolz. anyways, the convo was a bit (ok, i confess, it was very) random. but still... just talking with him on msn 4 no reason is a thrill... god, im so hopeless............
but i LOVE every moment of it!!!

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Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Liam kept bugging me about Him, asking who He is... i told him after school, hopefully he wont spill.

anyways, baritone choir showed up during concert choir today and He was in int. it was soooooo awkward me just sitting there and not singing, there goeees my chance 2 impress him whatsoever. but he's still cute. um... that wasn't relevnat, but anyways...

I saw Him at the volleyball game, i think Joy figued out who Him is... o well. they guys look so weird if not dorky with their tucked in shirts. He's really good. i just have 2 make it on the volleyball team. i need something for my sports thingy on the tracking sheet... lolz ^.^

i kept daydreaming after school about Him.. ya i'm going a little overboard... lolz.

I wish He likes me

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Monday, November 08, 2004

I just found out from Lia that i'm seating next to Him in Science. I didn't tell lia that i'm happy though. Even though I am, am i still in a crush??? dunno, but now bree's bugging me bout my msn name 2, honestly, i'm surprised it took people so long to notice it. but bree is sooooo close to guessing Him. Should i reveal this blog 2 ma friends, this blog is sorta... well.. you know... mushy....

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Successfully lost my voice, home for the day, am bummed out. I really wanted to go to school, and attend the rehearsals 4 more than just one reason.

I told mel bout Him yesterday, that makes 2 ppl i've told from JGA so far. Hopefully they wont spill. It'll be really awkward if he did find out but doesn't feel the same for me.

I dunno if it's just this whole crush thing or i've just taken a sudden interest to what boys think, i've gone on the net and searched up a whole bunch of articles the things that boys want girls to know, dealing with relationships namely. There's one thing that keeps popping up among the articles, and that's for girls to make the first move. Easier said than done, I wish it were that simple... *sigh*

o well, not seeing Him in person sorta makes things easier for me... i think...

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Sunday, November 07, 2004

Well, it's official, i've lost my voice. I don't think I'll be going to school 2morrow, but will die trying 2 make it anyways. theres the grade 8 strings rehearsal and the remembrance day rehearsal, wouldn't want to miss those. You know why, and no its not just for Him, it's for me too, I love my violin, even though i'm not the best player around, but i must say I've outdone myself for a beginner who's only played for 3 months! grin*

Cross ma fingers and pray,.~*'

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