Thursday, September 01, 2005

AGHHHH!!

I feel like screaming. Damn it, everyone everything I "do" these days, I feel.

I feel like screaming.
I feel like crying.
I feel like dying.
I feel like breaking down.
I feel like killing someone.

Damn it, don't I ever do anything anymore?!?

All I ever do is think and feel.

Which is fine, you know, cause if I did do everything I feel, I'd kill off half the population with my now-constant bitchyness and spaz fits.

I swear, why did NO ONE tell me that we were taking pictures yesterday?!?

I didn't get the package, so all I heard about was a sleepover a month later. Not one word bout pictures.

NO ONE!! Melissa barely mentioned it to me. Everyone else said NOTHING about it.

N-O-T-H-I-N-G. NOTHING!

So I turned up looking like complete crap while every other girl looked stunning in their perfectly styled hair, excessive make-up, cutest outfits, perfect body.

Don't get me wrong. I'm mighty comfortable with my face and body. True, there are times I feel incompetent. But generally, I know I'm a pretty asian, I have a skinny body, I have a waist, I have an ass, I have hips, I have long legs for asians, I have sufficient curves. I have to say, I like me, like the skin I'm under, the body I'm in.

But if everyone is going to abuse the beautifying products, why don't I?

I NEVER put on an ounce of make-up, when half the girls turn up with a full mask. and the other half? Put such black crap on their eyes.


Damn, I look sexy.

But hey, it um... emphasizes your natural beauty. And almost every single girl does it, so I guess it's okay.

PFSH.

So would it kill to tell me to make myself up for this ONE DAY?!? No, right?

Damn it.

So I have to stand there gaping at everyone there, because they all look like movie stars.

May is drop-dead gorgeous, she has such nice curves now.
Mel is so fucking hott. In her 3-inch wedges and miniskirt and tight black top.
Kristen looked absolutely stunning. Perfect complexion, centimeter long lashes and all.
Madz shot up 2 inches, her new hair-cut making her look even better than she did before.

AND I LOOKED LIKE COMPLETE CRAP.

GODDAMN IT PEOPLE. Would it kill to tell me to dress up when everyone of you is going to look like movie stars?

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Dorcy
Call me Dorce, Dolce, Xi

Im simple	Im deep
Im dumb	Im smart
Im conceited	Im self-aware
Im crazy	Im logical
Im loud	Im quiet
Im unfeeling	Im caring
Im messy	Im lazy

Im everything I love
Im everything I hate.



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