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Saturday, July 16, 2005

May 8



I went online and what do I get? Bombarded with questions about "the day before". So Kristen knew, David knew, Dimitri knew, even Leanne knew. Basically the whole of Stage Band knew. Great. So now I'm a whore for wanting to go with Kaitai and leaving you and Keith with some alone time? Mind you, the guys waited for me, waiting for you for 30 whole minutes. I don't how many guys are decent enough to do that for you in one lifetime.

However, if you want to shout it out to the whole of Stage Band, be my guest.

But when you're on the phone and you keep reminding me of how I ditched you, I hope you do realize that there's nothing I could say to that. Well, actually, check out my options.
a) stay quiet
b) start bitching
c) talk logic which will sound the same as bitching to her
d) hang up
e) get a box of raisin bran crunch and drown her out and give a double thumbs up.



Ya, I think I'll stick with the last one.

Crunch, Crunch, Crunch, Crunch... mmm... Waddya say? Ya. Thats perfect!

Haha, I think thats perfect to annoy people.

Person: You're so damn fugly!!
me: *crunch crunch*
Person: You're such a bitchy lil skank!!
me: *Crunch crunch*
Person: Don't you have any shame?
me: *Crunch crunch... swallow* Whats that? Thats great! *crunch crunch*
Person: ?!?

Now to get my hands on one of them purple boxes...

I should've watched that commercial two months ago, so I wouldn't be stuck listening to her telling me how bad of a friend I am in the most subtle way possible- tell me over and over again how wonderful it is to walk along that path all alone. Thank you, Mel, for making me feel bad for not doing anything.

You know, that actually takes skill, so I'll give her some credit for that. Not that many people can make others feel bad about doing a perfectly good thing.

And definitely not many people can downgrade someone elses love whenever they want and get away with it.

Just because I don't want to watch no movie, doesn't mean I'm doing it because Kaitai doesn't want to. Sure, I compromise with him, but that doesn't mean every single decision I make is under his influence. Do you have any idea how degrading it is when you jump to the conclusion that the only reason I would not want to watch a particular movie is because Kaitai doesn't want or let me?
a) you're saying he's controlling me.
b) you're saying I'm being controlled.

Neither one appeals to me very much.

I'd like a good and equal relationship thank you very much. No offence, no one likes being whipped. Or at least, being labelled as whipped. Thats just a huge blow on your ego. Notice how I never make fun of Keith about being "whipped"? I don't know how anyone can be proud of the fact that they control their other half. That's not exactly a good balance. I don't ever EVER want be treated like a circus lion, bound to do some guy's bidding at the crack of a whip. I'm human, not some object, or toy.

(Although personally I wouldn't mind being a slave in bed. ;) I find the idea of being chained to the bed oh so sinfully arousing.)

Even if I compromises, it's not because I'm "whipped". It's because I care enough to not always have it my way. If I'm happy trying something he likes, or seeing things his way, or simply because I'm a girl who just want to make my man happy, then let me do that. If it makes me happy making him happy, I don't see anything wrong with that. It's not like I'm bullied into doing everything because I love him, not like he's taking advantage of my passion, not like he has some kind of girlfriend remote.



And FYI Melissa, please don't, I repeat, DON'T ever call Kaitai a son of a bitch ever again.




Throwing you kisses @ 1:48 PM

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Dorcy
Call me Dorce, Dolce, Xi
Im simple
Im deep
Im dumb
Im smart
Im conceited
Im self-aware
Im crazy
Im logical
Im loud
Im quiet
Im unfeeling
Im caring
Im messy
Im lazy
Im everything I love
Im everything I hate.




Feeling Restless
Time 10:28a.m.
Whereabouts Home
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Wearing Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
Cash $230 (69 thongs)
Drinking Nothing
Eating Cough Lorenze Lorenge Lozenges
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Doing Thinking
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