Sunday, July 03, 2005
April 23guess what i did that saturday? *looks excited*
Did I...
a) go shopping
b) go to the movies
c) go to a rave party
d) attempt pot
e) get wasted
f) have a wild and crazy make out session
g) laugh myself silly watching family guy that i almost peed my pants
h) get abused my sister
i) hit more bases with kaitai
j) have wild and passionate sex
or better yet
k) all of the above?
did you guess "all of the above"?
yes. it was sweet sweet love we made that night after getting stoned and wasted... ahhh
congratulations on guessing it.
...
WRONG!!
my foot i got laid. and i wouldn't wanna get stoned in a bagillion years. yes, im prudish. happie?
guess what i actually did?
i spent FIVE WHOLE HOURS in front of the computer editing a 27 page long script!!! a script that was supposed to be group work. so much for that. i can easily say without any guilt that i did most of the work on this stupid script, which might explain the shitty state that it was in. while the other female members of my group was having fun with eric (no, they didn't get laid either) on the first day that we got together... i spent my time outlining the entire script. etc etc.
fine, they get credit too. cause i wasn't there for 2 of the gatherings. they DID write the other half of the script. im just pissed that...
I WASN'T APPRECIATED FOR MY 5 HOUR EDITING ON A BRIGHT AND BEEYOOTIFUL SATURDAY!!
there.
think about it. since when have i spent my weekdays indoors since the beginning of spring? i'm always out playing badminton/ volleyball/ swimming/ running/ just being crazy and annoying everyone in sight. okay, maybe not the last part.
but noooooooooooOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooo, i had to read through the flip-flopping thing over and over again, making sure that there're stage directions in every single scene, standadize all the directions, cut out line that don't flow, add lines to balance out the parts, and basically just redoing half the script over. only it took alot longer because i had to
a) read through it
b) disagree with it
c) highlight it
d) delete it
e) think of what im gonna replace it with
f) type it out
but when you're writing the scenes, you're just
a-z) writing it out.
well, it felt good though. cause NO ONE can complain about me not contributing to the drama assignment.
it felt good until i told mel about my hard work on
our script and she merely said "o" with no offer to help or words of encouragement or thank you or whatever. instead she proceeded to tell me about how far ahead she is on her biography assignment. the very biography assignment i've been procratstinating and couldn't do that day because i was working on
OUR drama assignment.
why do you all take it for granted that i spent 9 hours on this retarded project? jeez. because you dont realize it?
gee, thanks guys. but fine, it's a common mistake. i neglect the
extreme efforts of bush trying to keep war peace too. so it's quite alright.
but i just
told you i have been editing the flip-flopping thing for 4 hours straight and you say NOTHING!?!?!
o whoops, my bad. you said "o".
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jeez, listen to myself. why couldn't i just have said that? to people who actually should listen to this yada-yada blabber and not to the poor suffering ears of kaitai who are the only ears that are willing to listen to me complain when im in a horrible horrible mood.
blehh. kaitai is right. im a stupid weakling. i never stand up for myself. because im "happie" that im doing good for the group. because im nowhere "mean" enough to shove this onto the shoulders of others. because my conscience is stupid and retarded so i cant let bree, eric or mel do this because then i'd be a bad friend.
so much for getting treated like a friend in return.
so much for what goes around comes around.
then again, maybe thats just me. i like feeling that im doing the right thing. i enjoy convincing myself that im nice, and kind and everything i strive to be and managing time and time again to keep the shallowness under my skin. i just cant have that guilt haunting me.
blehhh... when can i learn to ditch that stupid conscience of mine and step up to the world and declare that the silenced ungrateful, vicious bitch within has surfaced?
Throwing you kisses @ 10:41 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
