Sunday, June 12, 2005
"if you dont like me, do me a favour and fuck off."
i don't like swearing. but i do
i don't like spending. but i do
i don't like competing. but i do
i don't like spazzing. but i do
i don't like bitching. but i do
i don't like pms-ing. but i do
i don't like getting my flow. but i do
i don't like having my body. but i do
i don't like getting labeled. but i do
STOP labelling me.
STOP! i declare you STOP!
i am not an ungrateful lil brat. i tell myself enough how i shouldn't buy it. i beat myself up over it. i dont need u telling me again. i wont argue, but that doesn't mean you're right.
this is such a joke. look at me. i'm a mess. i've changed. so much.
i swear sometimes i wanna kill. sometimes i wanna cry.
it's not fair how i've changed. it's not fair if i dont know if its for better or for worse. it's not fair that i refuse to go back to the way i used to be. it's not fair that i'm always complaining about how my life isn't fair because its just bull because i have a great life right now.
"breezy said her parents dont like the way you dress. too revealing"
o really? o really. i know perhaps the way i dress isn't exactly the most conservative way of dressing to azn parents but its just not fair that they pick on me when i wear just about the exact same thing all over girls do.
lemme recount. i have worm 3 skirts all YEAR. and 2 shorts that violate the dress code and once was at the track meet when every single girl was wearing shorts like mine. i, on no account wear belly tops. wear sphagetti strapped tank tops to school, wear halters alone to school. i really dont understand y my way of dressing is inappropriate.
i got dress coded just because my top wasn't ironed properly. btw... for the record. you CANNOT iron that shirt. u iron it. you might as well throw it away. so there was no way i could have prevented my top straps from rolling up. and they shouldn't even be considered straps because that top covers every single inch of my torso.
its such bull. i agree with the dress code. i find it a nuisanse yes, but i dont oppose it. after all, haven't i lived with parents who embraced that kidna logic all my life?
i dont even know what im saying anymore. everythings just buzzin in my head right now and im too scared to say it.
i didn't change. i'm not a tramp. i know it and you know it too.
im not yours to label.
Throwing you kisses @ 10:03 PM
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