Sunday, January 02, 2005
tommorrow school, nerve-wrecked.
wonder what i'll do when i face kaitai... knowing me, i'll prob have butterflies in my stomach again and well, i dunno, acting like he doesn't exist... which is sooo wrong. but i dont know how else im going to act. it's not like im going to go up to him suddenly and strike up a convo. besides its already suspicious enough with my xmas present and me asking him 2 dance TWO times. and well, i just hope wes didn't decide to tell everyone about it. i mean now, besides the "clueless" ppl (crush wise) rach is the only one that doesn't know although im pretty sure wes woulda told her. and well, chris and wes noes. i mean, they're awsm ppl, i like them alot but no... how they act everyday aint exactly what u call the "trustworthy" type behaviour. but i still like them. ^^
so ya, the thing with kaitai is gradually driving me crazy. slowly but surely. and im in an ok mood so im not going to cry and make my rents think im crazy for crying to the computer. 关键是现在我又有了另一个难题。我不是很清楚，那天mitri开了派对以后，“米利”对我说我的他对她很友好，省直有点太友好了。也许只是我多心吧。我希望如此，因为如果你让我在朋友和我的他之间作出一个选择我想我很可能会彻底疯掉。现在每当她对我说她和他有了一个很友善的谈话我就有点不知所措的感觉，大大源于嫉妒。因为我在他身边简直就是一个白痴，我在现实生活中根本不敢靠近他，面对他，心里就会有点发毛。而她呢，在男生旁边特别的自如，简直设学校里公认最大的“富了特”。哎，我现在真是乱得一塌糊涂，已经是不可救药的陷下去喽…… wat rotten luck
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Kaitai
