Sunday, January 09, 2005
woke up on friday morning... laid awake on my bed... thinking and what not. i dragged myself through the usual morning routine... and stomped my way to school for my interview. i ignored my dad in the drive.. i find the drive very pointless as i could have fully walked to school in 10 minutes... way to pollute the environment even farther, everyday should be non-smoking day. so ya, i trotted into the school, pasting a fake smile onto my face while doing so, cant be anything less than ms always-happie!! ugh, disgusting. we passed the vball tryouts, i smiled my way past the gym door without looking inside, quickening my pace, i want to pass that place that pieces another part of my sorrow to my pathetic life as quickly as possible. my dad however was interested in the vball game going on... so i ignored him AND the game and walked towards that dreaded homeroom where ms a of doom is sitting there waiting to discuss the problems that is making me a criminal at large.
walked into the classroom, sat down, listening to my dad complain about me in front of mz a while all i can do is sit there and look pouty. no comfort really. and then i have to start naming the "excuses" that i didn't do well. what can i say??
a)its holidays
b)i slacked off
c)xmas spirit in the air, no school work spirit
d)too many rehearsals
e)procrastinating
f)got bored
g)hates math
so cliched and fake. excuses, excuses, excuses. i mean, i could have fully done the project on the last day and get an A - A+. but the only reason y i didnt is that stupid idiot of a kaitai decided to make that 22 year old statement and they screwed my day. and the day following it. im not going to go into much of what happened that night, as it will be reliving that time period, bringing me nothing but grief and im already filled with that fatal substance, so i dont c the point of injecting more depression into my system and make me overflow and explode. that and i want to have a peaceful two days away from one of the troubles that's been bugging me since forever.
obviously, i couldn't tell ms a that. and when ms a asked me what i planned to do about it, i had nothing better to say but to ask for a makeup assignment. great, i just asked for more work. the last thing i want is to have a more heavy burden upon my already sagging shoulders. but what else can i say?? nothing, so i said the most logical thing for a "failing" kid to say. and my dad started saying that im rotten and i shouldn't have done what i did and ms a is nice enough to give me another chance. wth...
I asked for the makeup assignment. get the situation through your head, i feel guilty enough already as it is, there's no point in u rubbing it in, you're just watching our father-daughter relationship go down the drain and wondering wat the heck happenned. so shut up for once.
then i cant remember exactly what i said or what happened but i ended up in tears, big surprise there. that insensitive poohead. sometime l8r in the interrogation, i was told to get out while they had a lil chat. so i went out into the freezing cold and cried my eyes out until i saw rach, and she gave me a big hug and we talked so i was happy. thx rach!! ^^ then madz came and we all tried to walk by the tryouts for no reason apparently, but decided against it. so we ended up huddling in the doorway just talking bout how much our parents are being completely impossible and ignorant bout the tight fix that we are in. that cheered me up. its always so much better to compare your problems with other ppl's. takes
loads off ur mind. and we talked bout celeb day and we joked around so im all cheery again. I LOVE U GUYS!!!!
then, the bell rang... and thats another sad piece thats taped onto my broken life.
Throwing you kisses @ 2:03 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
