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Where I Kiss My Childhood Goodbye
Monday, January 17, 2005
my life is seriously reduced to nothingness. we have this UBER hist test that EVERYONE is stressing bout and im feeding my brain trash like britney spears and christina aguilera videos. talk about bad combination. that is disgusting. but i cant do anything about it. my brain wont taken anything that is remotely concerned with education. all i can do is chat with ppl and listen to trashy songs. im not even listening to GOOD songs, im watching christina aguilera's dirrty!! wth is that?? i mean, its an awsm video... but o god... the content was pure trash. i love her skirt, but again, its trash... complete and total trash. ahh poo, im doomed to end up on the streets, slouching about, mopping through my pointless life. nothing i do is purposeful. i should be correcting my ib thing but i cant bring myself to do it. maybe i should forgo this thing altogether. awww... all the trash im feeding myself is reducing me to nothing but trash as well!!! i am wat i eat rite?? rite... poop it. this sux... i hate myself. i know this is a pointless way of spending an after school day of my life but gahh!!! have you ever had one of those times, when you feel so totally pointless that everything worth doing becomes pointless too?? and all you feel like is becomes a piece of trash yourself and discarding yourself in the waste basket where everyone will just ignore you and leave you as it is and give you some piece and quiet. everyone's getting on ur nerves and u cant stand this pathetic world anymore. all that superficialness gets to you and you feel like ripping everyone apart cause they dont seem to understand that even though u loathe the silence (so you turn up the volume of the stereo as loud as possible, that is only because you are trying to shut the outside world from yourself, the world is such a sad and grey world, that its not worth looking or listening to anymore) you need to be left alone or vent your frustrations in one way or another and bombarding u with their problems doesn't seem to help does it? of course, ppl wont understand that cause im too nice trying to care for what everyone feels like to tell them straight to their face. i wanna scream, "GET LOST!!!" but i cant, cause im trying to making my purposeless life somewhat meaningful by being nice... wheeee the joy and wonder of it all. SHUCKS TO THE WORLD!!! no one will ever that i feel this way. all i can do is scream and tear myself apart from the inside and watch as they eat themselves away. watch my lungs burst. ha, but no one would ever noe.... HA AH AHAHA HAHA AHA. shucks to the world...
SHUCKS TO THE WORLD!!!
Throwing you kisses @ 10:55 PM
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Dorcy Call me Dorce, Dolce, Xi
Im simple
Im deep
Im dumb
Im smart
Im conceited
Im self-aware
Im crazy
Im logical
Im loud
Im quiet
Im unfeeling
Im caring
Im messy
Im lazy
Im everything I love
Im everything I hate.
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough LorenzeLorenge Lozenges
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
