Thursday, January 13, 2005
ms a was being totally unfair in the hist thing 2day... its really bugging but i'll live lolz.
i find it really strange how things work out in life. im in grade 8 in case anyone doesn't know that by know. *pokes description of self* so in a whooping 9 monthes, i'll be in grade 9... that fateful time when i'll move on into the mysterious high school life. i really hate to leave JGA... and well, i still have no clue where im going yet... but its either IB in Weston or mci. everyone says that IB sucks and so does the area Weston is in, so all in all, IB in Weston sucks. i dont know yet. almost everyone is trying out for ESA and so we'll all be separated when my 5 monthes time is up...bree isn't trying out 4 esa but shes not going anywhere i going either, she aimin for uts... and kaitai, he's going to some school in missisagua/ brampton which has both the gifted programme and IB programme. i've mentioned this sometime earlier but its time i bring it up again. it really amazes me how ironic this world is. My dad is currently at that glenforest(that how u spell that?) open house. ya, the exact same school that kaitai will be going to... and guess why my dad is there?? ya, he wants me to go to that school. he says if i get into that IB programme, instead of travelling that far to Weston, i might as well go to that school. besides, we might be moving soon once i hit grade 9 and i just know that i'll be moving somewhere even closer to missisagua, cause of the place where my dad works and all that. thats really weird... so i might end up going to the same school as kaitai... god, this is all so confusing.
do i want to c him after this year?? its not like he's not doing a good enough job of screwing my life. i mean i love him and all, but all that pain he's put me through... i really dont think i can handle another year or even 4 years facing him, or see him fall for someone else with my own two eyes. i want that first someone to be me!! ME!!!... im getting emotional again, but its really sad how i always get so worked up when i c him with ppl yet not yet brave or determined enough to tell him straight. all my determination and courage are devoured in the face of fear... kaitai, why do i hate and love u so much at the same time?? this is just crap.
Throwing you kisses @ 7:19 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
