Monday, January 17, 2005
mood swings, food, talking, ms anderson, kaitai wat else is new? but gonna blog anyways.
it was FREEZING in the morning. but its ok... i have my warm coat but my legs were not feeling up to it at all. ah well, im constantly cold anyways, but the funny thing is my cheeks are NEVER red, which i guess is a good thing since that way, no one can tell if im embarrassed, blushing or stuff. well, ms a's room and the gym didn't help much to warm me up. i sat watching the most boring video of all time, the lord of the flies from like a millenium ago. i could barely keep my eyes open. the actors in there had POOR skillz. that all i can say. i dont claim to be an awsm actress but to be in a movie, you need to have at least have
some acting skills. but apparently, standards were different way back then. so i sat on the left side on the room, all alone, me and may. all da other ppl were over to the other side so i sat there, yawning at the boredom of the movie. and it really doesn't help that 开台/凯泰 管他怎么写，和B一直坐在一起。心里不禁泛起点点醋意，我是B的朋友，我应该知道她不会背叛我的，但是心里还是有那么一点点的不放心。她虽不喜欢他，但他未必对她没有意思。他们俩天天朝夕相处，而我和他之间隔了八仗远，你叫我怎么能放得下心呢？so now i tell myself that i need to lay back and stop thinking those thoughts, i know how subconscious tend to lead to reality and the last thing i need is for those thoughts to become reality. that is just gonna mess my life completely. *sigh* stupid days.
during lunch, i pigged out on everyone's food eating with me, that was great fun. lolz then i realized that liam and kaitai had wiggled behind us in an attempt to steal their pop that i stole from them. so i passed the pop around and each of the girls took a sip and rachael stuffed a corn pop into the bottle when we're done. that ruined the pop for the guys lolz. thats a victory for us!! ha! take that, u two. it was fun... kaitai... (o^.^o)
but during french, we were studying for history and automatically everyone crowds over to bree's table. i mean theres only so many ppl that truly care about their grades. and i really dont feel like squeezing into that lil table. i mean, i did a pretty good job of reviewing yesterday at sarah's house. i might not have gotten everything jam packed into my brain, but i had a pretty good overview of what was happening in each chapter. so i sad there and looked around me, trying to find someone else to study with. then i realized that the sub (i cant care bout what his name is, seeing as he put me on the edge of nerve wreck by standing right behind me and kristen for the entire period) had said that we weren't allowed to move around. so that means i cant go anywhere. bahh.. and at my desk, is eric, matt, liam, and kaitai. wonderful ppl to study with im sure. so i sat there, looking at everyone with my widest eyes, cause i cant believe i was going to be stranded at that pathetic table with no one to study with, sitting there like a pathetic loner to match the table. that was brutal. so i said aloud, "i feel left out" and allowed my eyes dart to all parts of the room. and i guess kaitai was feeling sorry for me and he waved his hand for me to join him and liam, saying stuff like, "come". i was so relieved at the thought that i didn't have to be alone that i kicked my stool (HA! i got a stool and eric/liam/kaitai didn't!! long story lolz) to the place where they were sitting and gladly joined. seconds later, i realized the action that kaitai had performed and i remained in utter shock for moments afterwards. haha, so happie. ^.~ that fluttery feeling came again, and i feel like im floating on air again. any wounds made in the morning were erased by his tiny action. o god, it was soo wonderful knowing that. i couldn't believe kaitai's niceness. it's amazing what lil things like that can do to a person. so im going to write this down so i can give thx for it later on in my life. =^.^= but later i realized it was all part of him and liam's scheme to get back at me for wrecking their pop at lunch earlier on. cause before i know it, i owe them two bottles of pop. one for the one that we destroyed at lunch and one for not knowing the last line to a railways song. then, it was double or nothing, and the questions they picked really were not something i'd take into mind while reviewing. (=_=;) i didn't even agree to this whole "the price is rite" double or nothing tactic where it was all them doing the questioning but i ended up oweing them 34 or 66 bottles of pop when the period ended, even though that sub managed to separate us in the midway. somehow, after i called kristen for backup, the sub decided that we were a "big" group (with only 5 ppl????) and so we had to split up. mike (who decided to join us at the same time as i called kristen) and liam went off volunteering to break off. but kaitai decided to stick around and shifted his chair closer to us (ROFL), but liam started calling him a jerk and stuff that i wouldn't care listening longer, thus he went with liam and mike rejoined big d. while kristen question me on all the things that i had the good fortune to review yesterday, i amazed her with my astounding memory. ha, i lucked off, now she, like mel, think that i have photographic memory or something... (@_@;) and that, concludes my schoolday.
not quite if u count the part after school where i aske ms a about my glenforest ib 250 words thing. she gave me advice and all, for that im thankful, but she has to add the comment, "this is garbage" at the end. and do you know how big of a blow that delivers to my frail heart?? sure, i may act "hardcore" (pff, im sure), but hey, go ahead and believe my dad, see if i start breaking down over you two. it may get to me, but im not going to not take it to heart. its contradicting but whatever. u may say things to hurt me, but you're never going to kill me with the things you say. what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger, so go on and deliever your worst blow. i can take it. gimme ur best shot. hmpf. i wanna c what u can do. fine, go ahead and set a pass on the internet connection. i'll survive. you can take away my internet, its not like msn is being any less bratty recently anyways. i can always blog on notepad anyways then post it. i'll find a way to get around everything you restricted. rebellious?? no, hell no. you made me this way, this is what your actions bring, you brought upon urselves. if i turn out to be some ghetto girl in da future, it will be ur own doing. i do what i want, i do what i need to do. and if u dont like, its only karma, your own retribution. so go on. lay your rules, set your traps, deliver your blow and i'll only come back and smack you in your pathetic faces with double the pain you forced onto me like a boomerang. go on, i'll rise up to the challenge, i like it better when it hurts... go on, i dare you.
Throwing you kisses @ 5:28 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
