Saturday, December 25, 2004
xmas day... i dont feel the xmas spirit.
woke up, sleepy. me sis fighting for my kt jr bear again. god, me mom went on bout her usual big nice 2 small theory again. looked outta da window... no snow... o how wondeeful. feel depressed. my parents' friends coming over 2day. i dont feel anything like xmas in my house. hardly surprising since i live in a 110% chinese household. it's more chinese new year than any other festives out there.
i must say though, the world is getting more and more materialistic and that does include me. logged onto msn this morning bright and early, if u count 10 oclock early, so i dont miss the logging on of that someone special. o god, i have to stop this madness, i sound like a stalker, pfsh. anyways, thats another story. started chatting after washing up... so bored, wont go into details of washing up... like any one out there in the real world really care what brand of facial cleanser i use... im going off on a tangent but point is, i started say merry xmas to whoever logged on after me and u can be sure that whoever starts a convo with me asks what i got for xmas. i didn't get much, just an mp3 player and some money. thats bout all. i must say though, i love the idea of mp3 player and all, but ppl have no idea how hard it is for me to get me rents to get it for me, practically begging on my part. so undignified esp considering im going through what me rents call the "rebellious" stage. pfsh, ya rite, dorcy rebellious. im sooooooooooo sure. well, point is, the commercialism has gotten to out lives, im sure you've all noticed but well... i cant put my finger on quite what it is that makes me uneasy bout the whole material thing, i mean even i depend on it for some quick cash. unlike sielski who writes essays on the weird efforts in being politically correct, i shall simply states point blank that we're ditching xmas for presents, even very un-christian families like mine are somewhat into xmas. but what do we do? have friends come over cause everyone gets a break and xchange presents. do u c anything bout the true meaning of xmas?? i dont. very cliched topic but wat can u do, that's how it is. i bet the care bears will have something to say about it this year and every other year there is to come, so ya i'll go "fight" with me sis for my fav present this year and watch what the care bears say bout all this.
Throwing you kisses @ 2:22 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
