Wednesday, December 08, 2004
ladeedoo, me in SUCH good mood 2day. i admit i wasn't in the best of mood during school days. then again, being me, u really cant expect me to jsut let what kaitai said to me be simply forgotten. i know i really shouldn't care, the last think i should do is let what the guys say bout me bother me. but this is diff, he's not just any guy, he's kaitai. i wont say anymore, the same drill shall go on and on and on and bore all those who are reading to their graves.
so he wasn't exactly being the nicest guy to me, but he's a guy, i guess its what guys do. lolz. i mean i cant think of anyone who actually doesn't mouth off to girls except for dimitri the nice gentleman and powell, well, powell's just too nice. meh, i'll have 2 get used to it, its not like im gonna confess any time soon.
after school, there was honour. sigh, i cant seem to make it back to my locker with my wednesday binder routine without having 2 ppl knocking it over. lolz. meh, i've learnt. its just a me thing now. lolz, so i tagged around the lockers for awhile, god knows why, i guess i just love the idea of having everyone there just talking and stuff, without kaitai and other ppl shouting commands like during football. (on a side note, kaitai looks so cute when he's serious and studying his music *grin*)
on msn l8r, bree was telling me bout liam lolz, that git, so stupid, claiming he was stupider... yes liam, we all know you are stupid lolz. and i think that bree got fed up with me with my constant ramblings, compliments, and complaints bout you know who. i've learnt to talk bout him less and less with mel and bree and lex now, i mean, nothings new, they cant feel the things that i feel, so there really isn't no point in me telling them every single detail. its something i have to deal with on my own, and everyone has their own life, i cant let my interest just push its way into theirs. ^^
moving on... here's the part that makes me giddy with delight, kaitai actually talked with me on msn 2day!! he came on three times 2day, or at least that i noticed. i didn't talk 2 him, well mostly cause:
a) i was scared
b) i was daunted by previous encounters of completely random convos
c) i have something else at hand (although there really isnt' nothing more important than him) *grin*
d) his status was busy or away.
so ya, i just stayed there, doing whatever i was doing then and when he came on for the the third time, he started a convo with me!!! well, he went "stupid dorcy". but thats ok... he says that like a million times to me each day so im gradually getting used to that. im not used 2 it yet, but ya, i will be in time. but the thing is, we actually had a somewhat logical convo this time. one that actually made sense. he seemed preoccupied though. but thats ok, i noe ppl often have 6/7 convos open at the same time. i noe cause i've done that soo many times. o well, so i blabbered on and he told me random facts about oyster being "erotic" and the derivation of "horny" and other random kaitai-ish facts (ok, i confess, he got them from bathroom reader). he seriously has a dirty mind, lolz, but c'mon, who doesn't at this age??? dont start acting innoncent. it was a nice civilized convo, but still, i'm satisfied, i'll go off smiling in my dreams. dreams filled with him... *swoons*
but at the end of it all, we went talking bout the sci fair for a bit and he and powell got into the top 20!!!! omg, i love him sooo much, he's so smart. *sigh* there are times when i wonder why i still love in spite of all the the insensitiveness but i guess i still do, watever. i dont wanna have an explanation, y make something so mysterious and romantic into a plain, flat boring textbook?? (there's a metaphor in there........ somewhere). love him so. but the thing is... he just signed off without saying goodbyes or watever, thats kinda saddening (if thats a word) but its k, prob computer problem or parents or watever, i'd rather believe that then he just found me annoying and left me hanging. i'm gonna be positive bout myself for once ^^.
"hugs and kisses even tho u'll never get them... not today" anyways"
Throwing you kisses @ 9:57 PM
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