Tuesday, December 21, 2004
haven't blogged in a couple days, but thats ok, im still much betta off than all my other friends... they dont blog for weeks on ends.
meh, so anyways... i was going to blog for like 10 minutes b4 my sis stop hogging that friggin washroom... but noooooooo, she jsut came out like in 2 secs and now my ever so annoying mom is screaming at me for no reason... thats soooo byotchy jeez. me and my dysfunctional family...
well, im finally back, back from being {hot, steamy, wet... in da shower :P} lolz. and now for an update on all that happened. well, on sunday, i went to see the spongebob movie cause i was dragged by joy. it was ok i guess, pretty retarded, like all spongebob related stuff, but i guess that's what makes it "funny" *roll eyes*. other than that, nothing else really happened.
by nite, david was talking to kaitai and he managed to find out that the numbskull of a kaitai still dont know that i like him. i mean how thick could someone get?!?! i mean, it's made pretty obvious. but hey, dont get me wrong or nothin', im not complaining. really, when you think about it, what
do i have to complain about. i mean, i was living in panic stricken mode for the past 2 and half days trying to figure out what going in his head and truth be told, i wasn't going to talk to him for quite awhile if he knew bout the truth. if he didn't, then i'd just keep on being his "friend" and chat with him or whatever. rite now, his thickness sorta made life a
lot more easier for me.
it was nice, lolz, knowing that i can have half decent convos with kaitai now. lolz. they're even somewhat logical. lolz. before, we could spend half an hour dissing one another, what a delightful convo. i must say though, he is good at minesweepers, he's one of the first person to be able to beat me. but thats only cause he waits for me to make a dumb move first... but meh, if thtas his strategy, whatever. to each their own. what an eventful sunday h uh.
anyways, on monday, lilz did the sweetest thing, well almost anyways, i wont let her. it always bothered me how much of a retard i am when im around kaitai and baisically every other second of my life. im really insecure about myself rite now esp with kaitai. and you can bet your life that what he told dimitri didn't make me feel any better. and even i've tried to test him a couple times, well, you can guess that the results weren't too pleasing. i swear, that statement tht kt made has left a unerasable mark in my heart, a scar that is still oozing with blood. and it pains me to know that, there right across my building, is this very attractive and talented girl tat have great convos with kaitai. i really like lilz, and i mean, would i really think someone like us would be a backstabber?? no, of course not. but i fear that kaitai isn't all that reliable. even with his no gfs till 22 claim, guys could go all unpredictable, esp kaitai. so im paranoid, i've to deal with that, big whoop.
well, lilz told me that she'll not talk to him if it makes me feel any better. of course i didn't let her do that. wat sorta friend would i be then? thats just plain wrong, shutting off all members of the opposite gender from your crush so u can get a better chance, *shudder* thats sooo peverted and ... just plain wrong. not to mention terribly bitchy. let's face it, im just insecure and jealous rite now. i mean, it would be great not to have competition... but UGH wth am i saying?!?! jeez, heck no. besides, what is the fun if ur crush only gets with you cause you're the only one available. i mean, pfsh... thats jsut crazy and disappointing. but point here is, lilz offered that and that was REALLY sweet of her. luff u lots lilz!!
and in da afternoon, i went over to lilz and messed with her webcam. she took random snapshots of me and made onee where i was blurred and jumping into a dp which has a caption that read "Jump for Kaitai". that girl's crazy. want proof?? she sent it to him! enough proof for ya? i think so. well, i just have to be an idiot and ask kaitai l8a in da day if he checked his mail if no, hell dont check it. so fo sho, he checked it and meh. i just said it was a joke and i didn't noe bout the whole thang. hope that got that thick headed person fooled.
anyways, i'm gonna start making kaitai's valentine's and or bday present now. which is really confusing cause i dunno if i wanna actually make a big deal out of it now, since i noe im not telling him, ever. and so if im not, i dont intend on him finding out by accident, then goes all my efforts trying to hide it, not that i've been trying to do that l8ly. but i will start now, starting from last thursday nite. but it's not easy. i really wish i could murder him sometime, like now. lolz. no but honestly, he drives me insane. like, on msn, if he's not replying to whatever thing im saying... i get upset. thats sooooo immature of me. i get jealousy fits cause of him too. i hate jealousy. its sooo annoying. but im not gonna let that get the best of me. as for kaitai, thats another story.
Throwing you kisses @ 11:33 AM
Restless
10:28a.m.
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$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
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Only Hope
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High School
Kaitai
