Tuesday, December 28, 2004
i cant recall when was the last time i had a dream. but here's an entry bout it all anyways.
guess i had too much to think about last night but truth is... *sigh* well, anyhow, heres the story. i was somewhere in the school, i think. and i was just sitting in a circle talking with ppl. cant remember their faces. then "mel" passed a note to me, saying if i think sielski was "hot". such a total mel thing to do, so i didn't think twice that it was mel and wrote "um... ya" and passed it back. the note came back couple seconds later asking if i think kaitai is hot... and you noe me, being wildly obsessed and all, of course, scribbled "p-cha. course he is" and turned around to pass it back, without looking. a few moments later. the note got back into my hands, this time with words that filled up the entire piece of paper and words that make my heart jump. all over the paper were red marks that said something similar to this.
i think i know what you think i noe but you dont think you want me to noe. do you want to leave it as it is or take it one step farther? talk to me.
I love you,
<3i turned round, feeling quizical bout the note, expecting to catch mel's eye, but only to find kaitai. that was when my heart stopped, even in my dream. everything seemed so real, its scary. i caught his eye and he mouthed the 8 letters to me, again, my heart stopped again for the second time in 1 minute. i silently mouthed them back to him. with tears in my eyes. for the rest of the day in my dream, i sat around avoiding him, allowing my tears to flood my eyes and stream down my cheeks. i guess even though it's a dream, i realize how impossible it is for it to ever be fulfilled. i scrunched up that piece of paper containing the few words taht makes my heart leap and hugged it close to my chest, hating it and loving it as much as i hate and love the one that penned the note. yet, i couldn't resist un-scrunching that note and reading it time over time again, seeking comfort.
回忆被你占满 但你不在场
为何要到悲伤 才想你的肩膀 但你却不在场
为何我的坚强 会瞬间瘫痪 爱为何不在场
为何要到无望 才拒绝遗忘 但是你却不在场
为何我的遗憾 总是割不断 爱为何不在场
为何说话那么满
让爱情百孔千疮 进退两难
为何我会失去方向
莫非… 只因为你不在场
Throwing you kisses @ 10:47 AM
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