Monday, November 29, 2004
ok, i have to make this entry as quick as possible, basically because i've tons of hmwk, damn, cant think bout it, or else will get cramps in abdomen...
so ya anyways, main events of the day includes of course the getting of report cards. so ya, i got a 90.21 average. which is ok... i noe it aint bad, but it isn't the best average i could get. for one thing, i could easily have gotten 100 in math, but i didn't. so ya. i know i really shouldn't be complaining but i cant help it. because i messed up sooooooo much in term 1 and u noe what? the IB programme doesn't care a damn about ur other term's mark. all they care is term 1. so ya. i messed up on my LA, my Health, my science, and god knows what else. i had sooooo many grades in the eighties that i was upset. i know i sound like one of those annoying brats that wont stop complaing even though they got a good mark. i have no wish to become one, but u cant blame me, if this isn't my personal best. im so competitive... or maybe not... watever. gotta let it go.
but u noe what??? 90.21 is a good average, not excellent, then i saw lex + shar's average... friggin 92.5 and 93.8!!!! what in tarnation happened there?!?!? like, i noe they're awsm ppl with amazing brains but u noe, i find it so hard 2 accept that. i know i sound petty and all but really what all this is, in liam's words are, "
UNJUST"ness. i mean, we
all know that ms A is a hard marker, is it our fault that we get her for basically
everything?!?!?!? HELL NO! so, i mean, its just not fair, we could have easily gotten a much better average! It's not fair they get the easy markers and we had MS A. dont get me wrong. ms a is an awsm teacher but u noe, when report cards day comes, u cant help but be mad at her. and its not like we can complain to her or anything, she'll just go like, dont blame me, blame urself. and i cant go confronting ms N or q-tip cause they'll just go ur-just-jealous. sheesh. i dont believe that im stuck with a 90.21 when i could have gotten like a 95 or something with diff teachers!!!!
omg, i dont believe myself. did i really say those things? *gasp* i know whats me, what my average, and whats true for me. but i guess i am competitive and vain after all. *sigh* it all seemed so reasonable when i was getting all depressed about the grades, but now when u start to write things down, u realize that ur really quite unreasonable. i mean, i guess what i want is just to be the best... like thats ever possible, i guess i dont want anyone beating me... *shutter* im scaring myself now. i dont wanna become like that. i dont wanna become some green-eyed jealous freak. which i guess is exactly what i am now.... *sigh* i mean, i just dont want the girls rubbing it smugly in my face, not that they would ever do such a thing, they are wonderful wonderful ppl. ugh. shall control emotions and get in touch with inner self. shall make peace with self.......... breathe in......... breathe out...... breathe in........... breathe out.......
kz, hopefully im normal now. hopefully. so ya, anyways, im still an idiot. like when kt asked me for my average, i went like, "you'll tell me yours rite?" and he went "um..ya...*shifty eyes*" so of course, in order to cover up the fact that i like him, had to make sure that he would tell me, like i would with any other person, but he refused. so ya, i was like... ok. and went 2 trade back my pants with bree's. when i came out, i wanted to tell him or apologize for not letting him know my average. but it would seem sooooooo weird to everyone not knowing of the situation, that i would care bout something as trivia as that. so i ended up not having the courage to tell him anything at all. so now, im probably some stuck-up snob in his opinion... not good... not good.... not good at all...... nice going there, dorcy.
and when we were at the volleyball practice......... the stupid sub coach just
had to shut that door didn't he? ugh!!!! i wanna watch their practice!!!! sheesh! i needa pick up a few tips from the guys if i ever wanna make the team with my poor skills..... ok, so i frontin' but i dont have 2 make everything point blank, do i?
oww... my head still hurts from basketball when monica elbowed me in the head..... must get back 2 pic book now, shall edit entry if anything pops into my head.
98 / 78 = 1.26
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