Friday, November 05, 2004

ya well, i'm confused cause i dunno if he likes me. its kinda tiring 2 have a crush. but maybe thats cause i haven't fallen 4 any guy since like grade 2. he's really cool. u cant say that he's really good-looking or anything but he looks cute. hes chinese (i've sworn 2 only like white guys.... but you've gotta make exeptions for the special ones) but surprising, he's extremely athletic. when all the other guys use 8 minutes 2 complete a mile run, he only uses 6! but that doesn't mean he's all muscles and no brains, he's smart, got perfect on gauss just like me... lolz grin*. and um... he's also sorta like the class clown, well maybe not exactly clown but he's sooo funny! oh oh oh, and heres the part that u have 2 noe--- he has abs! well, not that that matters, but its always a nice bonus. hehe ^_^ sigh*

but the thing about him is unlike all the other popular guys in my school, he doesn't get all that close 2 girls. like, in my school, hugging is extremely common and guy+ girl hugs r not that unusual. no big. but when a girl tries 2 um... be "friendly" with him, he doesn't buy it. he doesn't appreciate the hugs from girls. i dunno, i kinda like that about him, cause he's not that easy like other guys. and even though he's humorous, he's not that dirty. omg, rn't u falling 4 my guy 2?

but the thing is, i can't tell if he likes me, and i haven't been dealing with crushes for soooooo long! and i know i shouldn't get distracted from my studies (asians r like that) but but.... i'm lost, dunno what i should do. should i tell him? but i'm afraid he'll reject me... sigh

i cant figure him out. u know how funny guys should be all "open" and stuff, well he is, just that sometimes when we're around him, he's all "what do you want" kinda attitude. its really confusing.

o ya, here's a little detail i found out yesterday. the grade 8 girls r trying out 4 basketball and this really "perfect" girl called sharon was trying out. and my crush was cheering 4 her, and when my friends ask him if he likes her, he denies it but ya, i kinda think he likes her. that girl is kinda like one of the most popular girl in school. she's really artistic and stuff.
HUGE BLOW
(hang on, i think i've talked bout this in the last entry, but watever)

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