Tuesday, November 30, 2004
its been a long day, lots 2 talk bout... again, i'll have 2 make this quick due to the forever-getting-on-my-nerves picture book. for now. i'll fast forward to the last period of the day.
so ya. i believe i've told u ppl bout the dance but the thing with is, i noe we'll be evaluating each other on how much work we did but still, when your group members dont cooperate, its hard to bring your whole entire performing self and thats exactly the case wiht my group. i seriously cant bring myself to dance with those two slouching at the back... doing NOTHING!!! the last period is only 30min and due to the fact that gym was before, we had 10 minutes off due our incredible slow-paced changing. and we messed around witht the thing to play our music in for anohter 10 minutes. i canperfectly understand mel's frustration that none of the players on the school computer isn't working but i really hate is when the guys crowd around and do absolutely nothing with the computer trying to figure out a way to work it. its not like im gonna teach them the moves with the fast paced rythm of the song.
so ya. when we finally got down to work, they wont stop talking!!! i mean, if u're contributing, fine, but clearly, u're not, so stop wasting our precious time!!! u noe i lost it back there. i just started to scream at them. well, not exactly scream but i did raise my voice and ppl who know me know that i almost
never do that. i dont like to yell at ppl and even though i didnt yell 2day, my attitude sorta made me put my foot down on things and the guys finally decided to cooperate for the final last 5 minutes. and u noe what? we didn't even get HALF of the dance done!!! AHHH!!! and its due next monday, and guess what? james prob isn't gonna be free.
so ya, i went home and walked with joy. joy is an awsm friend, not to mention a good listener. but this new girl just have to come along and she started reciting her homework and her schedule. like we're all really keen to learn about her homework schedules, she's not the only one stressed out but does she have to tell us what hmwk she has? is that something that your friends really need to know? and ya, so i was sulking by myself, which isn't very nice btw, i dont like 2 do that but you know when someone wont keep talking bout something extremely trivia, it really does drive you crazy.
and when i said i wanna strangle someone... figuratively of course, she went like whats wrong... and i said nvm. cause i really dont wanna tell the whole story over again. its such a pointless task. and its not like u can do anything about it to help me, i have 2 get over this thing by myself. but nooooooooooooo, that new girl just
have to bug me about it claiming that she can help and yada. i mean, c'mon, it's so obvious taht i dont wanna talk bout it, and at that point all u can do is leave that person to chill of or at least wait for them to tell you voluntarily. and i mean, whats it to you to know about my personal life?!! but obviously, no one has given her much of a lesson on how to be a good listener observer, cause she just didn't get the message and went on ranting bout how she could help. so being the nice person that i am, i of course told her the story again.
but thats not the end of it. she had to contribute to the fact taht i should just ignore the guys and do my own dance. i mean, earth-to-notmentioningyourname!!! its only 1 week away, like im really gonna have sooooo much time on my hands that im gonna make up a new one. u have no idea the time and energy i put into this one already. im gonna be dead pissed if teh guys causes me to get a horrible mark. and she kept on associating my problem with her past problems which is all-oh-so-interesting. *roll eyes* like, puh-leeeease. i really want to hear about your tragic little stories when im mad enough to jump off a building. so then i said, u dont get it. and she just has to insist that she does. which of course, is just plain foolish. and you know there's really nothing more annoying than having someone tell you that they know all bout your situation or what you are thinking when they obviously dont. i mean, you're not me. so how in the world r u supposed to know exactly what im going through?!?!?! such a little know-it-all.
well, ya. thats my eventful period 8 and the walk home. i apologize for sounding so cranky but i really cant help it. im not in my best of mood but wheeeeeeeeeeeee *force a smile* im gonna be ok...... or at least, i'd better be.
me start another entry. this one getting too long, no pointing in continueing it.
Throwing you kisses @ 4:22 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
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Nothing
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Make plans
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