Monday, November 15, 2004
Did i ever tell anyone that i HATE kaitai?!?!?!? i hate him soooooooo much. dont ask, it's a long story... well, actually, i'm gonna tell u anyways.
did anyone realize how PERFECT kaitai is?!?! i did, he's sooooooooo perfect. i really hate him when he's like that. i mean, look at him! He's totally athletic. the best player in every single sports basically. He's totlaly smart, u DONT need proof for that, its OBVIOUS. He's totally musical, being vp of the violas and having the piano and god knows what else he knows. he's totally funny, he's always making ppl laugh, well, he does act like an idiot though (but he's MY idiot... pff.... i wish).
he's totally sympathetic when he wants to be. like today mel got really upset cause of the whole dance thing, ir eally cant blame her. i'm not altogether that please as well. and he was looking over at us (us being me and the gals comforting mel) while ms A was checking his story. (i confess, i knew this cause i was stealing glances at him... lolz, u cant blame me can u???) Isn't he the sweetest thing ever?!?! and he was sooooo nice to mel in the hallway too. i cant deny that im the tiniest bit jealous (ok, maybe more than a bit lolz) He's such a total sweetheart... awww
he's totally artistic. lke the rough copy, i didn't put much effort into it but u look at his, awsm story with KICK-ASS drawings. i swear, he's soooooo talented. everything was sooooo perfect about his layout. i bet u anything that his is the best (no offence to anyone else's) so when he asked 2 c mine, how could i show them to him, HIM of all ppl. puh-lease... i'm trying to impress the guy in a very subtle way, showing him my 2 sec drawings definitely wasn't the way to go. i felt sooo horrible.
see? kt's a complete jock, but a talented jock with BRAINS!!! wow, it just doesn't get any better than this. but u noe, him being so perfect and all, i couldn't help feel that sometimes his "mr-im-2-good-4-u" is true. he IS too good 4 me. i dont know... y would he like me? i feel like a complete loser with a capital L. he's just so perfect, personality, brains, talents, body, looks... omg, he's got it ALL!!!! how can i ever be good enough for him?!?! *sobs* (dont hit me, mel)
u noe how they say if smoe1 rejects u, then they're not good enough 4 u? well, i dont know, i wanna believe it, but kt is sooooooo worth every single thing in me, EVERY SINGLE part of me, he's sooo worth it! i noe it's just a guy, but he's not just ANY guy, he's KAITAI!! the most perfect guy EVER! ya but if he's really kt, i dont' think he's ready for a relationship. it's just not kt-ish. and honestly, i don't know if i'm ready as well. but u noe, if i am, i noe who my guy is.
but y would he have me, when he could have pratically any girl he want?
...just please let that girl be me...
Throwing you kisses @ 10:39 PM
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