Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Do you know something about me? I cant flirt. ya you heard me, a girl who CANNOT flirt. or maybe its just with kt.
flirting is
not my thing. i hardly ever do the flirt thing, i'm so down to earth and everything. yet, how can i let kt know subtly without flirting?? anyways, bree + mel was attempting 2 teach me how 2 flirt in class, lolz hilarious.
but the dance thing really got on mel's nerves 2day. i mean, bree's dance is sooo cool. ours is sooo bad in comparison. its hard 2 do anything that can surpass them. it's not like its my life goal to surpass bree's group, but u noe, we need something that can b held up and not be completely smouldered by their dance's brilliance. their dance is sooooooooooo kick-ass. wait, i've said that. and kt and wes was like "mocking" our dance. i dunno if it was meant that way, u noe, im always pretty slow with sarcasms. oh and according 2 mel, kt was looking at me, *squeak* during our practice dance but i think cause our dance is so weird and everything.
but the thing is, mel got a blog and she writes in it like i do, and here's part of it,
"then there's me and dorcy...... two girls that are so not popular.... and then there's bridget and kristen...... popular extrordinaire!!!!!!" ok, when i read that, i had 2 look at that part like twice, thrice or even 4 times before i could actually digest it. i noe i'm not exactly sharon/ rachel type popular but i have my own friends. i dont even wanna be popular if it actually takes work. i mean, things should fall into place naturally. i dont wanna try 2 hard or anything.
ok, i do try to befriend sharon/ rachel/ madi but its kinda hard considering that i'm not in the same class as them but i really cant take it when u noe, the thought of being "un"popular keeps haunting me. bree and kristen are popular, ya, ok, fine with that. i just wanna have like lots of friends who like me for who i am. there was a phase when i try soo hard to be popular, thats when i first stepped into JGA and came into the class where everyone in the kelly groupie were. but i've realized there really is no such thing as popularity. or maybe there is, but i just dont wanna be part of it if its not a me thing.
i admit i'm still trying to find my spot among my friends, but what else do you expect when you've only know certain people who already have their own little circles of friends for only 3 months? there were times i wish when everyone would stick by me no matter what even during projects, but i've come to realize tht, u cant really make sense out of all of this. it doesnt contain any logic. to me, the one thing that makes popularity appeal to me, is friends,
real ones
Throwing you kisses @ 10:56 PM
Restless
10:28a.m.
Home
Sunny
Yellow Tank + Green LaSenza PJs
$230 (69 thongs)
Nothing
Cough 
No one
Only Hope
Make plans
Thinking
High School
Kaitai
