Friday, November 05, 2004

I don't know anymore. I think i still have a crush on him but... i don't know. it's so tiring. people say its a blessing 2 love. but is it love? its a crush. he's so perfect. maybe not in looks, but in EVERYTHING else. unlike lotsa other guys when girls throw themselves at him, he remains unswayed. call him arrogant, call him stuck-up. i like that about him. he's dependable, hes secure... (wow, i'm soo protective) but i dont know, he's cold to me as well, just like he is with other girls.

i heard he likes this other girl. but when my friends confronted him, he denied. i know that girl, she's perfect, well almost anyways. sigh. that girl is talented, popular, pretty, fashionable, everything im not. i know i'm being negative but when u realize that your crush may not return the favour, its hard 2 remain positive.

I'm such a bum. i've only been crushing on him 4 a couple days, yet im in so deep...

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Dorcy
Call me Dorce, Dolce, Xi

Im simple	Im deep
Im dumb	Im smart
Im conceited	Im self-aware
Im crazy	Im logical
Im loud	Im quiet
Im unfeeling	Im caring
Im messy	Im lazy

Im everything I love
Im everything I hate.



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